THROUGH TIME

i'm on my knees, begging,
begging - please come home,
such a long time has past,
and i'm left here all alone.
i've missed you,
i've cried for you,
but my tears are all in vain.

i can wish,
to turn back time,
to just forget,
but the scars still remain,
i can wish for them to leave,
but alas- wishes can't come true,
scars are a part of us,
even as time passes by.
they're reminders of our past,
keeping all the pain,
and hiding them deep inside.

oh, how i wish,
things hadn't turned out this way,
i wouldn't have fallen,
i wouldn't have lost this fight,
my last chance of hope,
dashed.
oh, why am i always the fool?

the facts are too clear to ignore,
i've loved you, but i wanted more,
sorry to say,
i guess i give up.

everyone should learn,
to let go,
to finally wake up,
to learn to surrender.
no matter how much i try,
what i wanted ,
has always been and
always will be,
just far out of my reach.

so,
goodbye,
i'll be leaving.

-jas-