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Life Update!

Don't you just love that feeling when you put a pen to paper (or your fingers to the keyboard) and your thoughts just seem to flow directly from your mind straight to the writing media? That feeling when you really don't know what or how to say something, but the moment your fingers come into contact with the keyboard, or your pen hits the paper, everything you want to say just comes? Amazing, isn't it?  And this is one of the reasons why I love writing. It's so effortless (at times, at least.)

Hello dear readers! :) Or rather, hello Lynn and Jannah and Shman (who's just back from Taiwan. Welcome 'home', Shman! :D ) and whoever else still reads this blog. Yeah I'm still in denial that there's still other people who read my blog hahah Yeap. *peace signnnn*

And this here, is another life update.

It's been 5 days since I last posted a life update, and what I have been up to so far? As I'm typing this, I'm sick and I feel like crap. Which is why I'm home instead of at Taekwondo centralized training. I hate missing centralized training. Rawr. Oh okay okay, life update! I've been:

1. Reading
These past few days, I've only managed to read one book -

The reason it's taken me so long to finish this one book is because it's so emotionally draining. I love Jodi Picoult, she's my favourite author. Her books are always thought-provoking - she attacks an highly debatable ethical issue, and it's always 'WHAT WOULD YOU DO?'. When you first read her books, you'll have your own stand on how you see issue in question, but as you read on, you start to see the other side of things. It really does get you thinking about how you may be wrong and doubt your own opinion. This book, Handle With Care, is about wrongful birth. It's about a little girl who has osteogenesis imperfecta, or in layman terms, brittle bone disease. Look it up, it's really, really interesting. Anyways, the mother of this little girl (Willow) wants to sue her physician for wrongful birth- which basically means that if she'd known earlier that Willow would be born with this disease, she wouldn't have had her in the first place. But truth is, she actually just wants the $$ to provide a better life for Willow. So. What would you do?

If that itself wasn't bad enough, the disease highlighted in the book wasn't any common disease like Down Syndrome, for example. Picoult just HAD to use osteogenesis imperfecta, depicting how life with this disease is like. It's really heartbreaking, really. Just look it up, and you'll know exactly what I mean.

On a lighter note, I've started on another book just today. 

I think the only reason I bought this book was because it looked pretty, heheh. But it's going great so far :) Fingers crossed.

2. Baking

After a long hiatus - blame A Levels (yes I blame all my hiatuses on A Levels) , I finally baked! :D And nope, Leek's birthday cupcakes don't count. Don't ask me why. So I baked .. *drumroll*

APPLE CRUMBLE! :D

It was PERFECT. A little slice of heaven. With ice cream. So much ♥ :') OH AND DID I MENTION I HAD ICE CREAM 3 TIMES IN THE PAST 5 DAYS? :D :D :D

3. Learning to cook

Since I may be leaving for UK soon, and I have almost zero (not really, but close) and my grandma is here, I've been learning how to cook! :) Sort of. My grandma usually prepares the ingredients and sauces and all before I even wake up, so the only thing I do is cook everything on the wok itself. So if I had to leave for UK tmrw, I'd still have no idea how to prepare anything. YAYERZ. 

4. Researching

Yeap, been doing research on osteogenesis imperfecta. Refer to #1 ^

5. Gardening

Helping my mum to gardening at the bungalow. The flowers and plants there aren't to her liking, so she's sort of redoing the whole garden. And dragging me along to help her. Here's what I've learned so far:

• I HATE GARDENING
• I HATE FROGS 
• - even more than my mum. I'm surprised.
• I hate soil.
• Soil makes me sick.
• Gardening gives you loads and loads and loads of insect bites.

I really do hate gardening.

6. Selling off books

A Levels is OVER. (I LOVE saying that.) and since Jason is quite certain that he doesn't want to take Science subjects for his A Levels, I'm selling off all my books! Had to organize and reorganize them, and now the book list is up, price list is up, and I'm just waiting for people to get them off my hands! :)

7. Teaching Jason how to use the calculator

Jason is in Form 5. AND APPARENTLY HE DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO USE THE CALCULATOR. *shoots self in head* My brother, ladies and gentlemen. Is A Genius. 

8. Planning trips in my head

This whole week, I've been stuck at home because Lynn is working and Shman is lightyears away in Taiwan. So no one to teman me do fun stuff :'( But but I've planned so many things I wanna do! I wanna go to myBurgerlab & Dip n Dip & Shman still owes me lemon chicken & butter prawns at Groupbase and I wanna have a movie marathon and I wanna watch Great Gatsby and I wanna go for badminton and pool and shopping and so many other stuff. SHMAN FASTER BRING MEH :'( 

I still suck at ending posts. 

Kay lah that's allllllllllllllllll. Byebyeeeeee! ♥

3 More Months! :)

A-Levels has ended, the holidays have begun! :) So what have I been up to, and what will I be up to? 

1. Reading
As if the many books still untouched that I had at home wasn't enough (hiatus due to A-Levels. I promised myself I wouldn't touch any books until A-Levels was done with.), I had my BB1M voucher to spend :D Great news for me, bad news for everyone else. My mum even forbade me from buying too many - she limited me to only four, sadly :( Having so much time on my hands, I decided to finish reading all my new books at least once before I leave this September (hopefully). Thinking about it now, it's not really a challenge seeing as I devour books. If I start a book and I find it interesting, I can finish it in a day? Yeah, that bad. Heeeee :P So far, I've read 6 books. Not much by my standards, but as you'll see in a while, I've been quite busy. I think. Hahahah. They are:

• Delia's Crossing; by Virginia  Andrews
• Marshmallows for Breakfast; by Dorothy Koomson
• The Tenth Circle; by Jodi Picoult
• Kane and Abel; by Jeffrey Archer 
• A Prisoner of Birth; by Jeffrey Archer
• Before I Fall; by Lauren Oliver

I can never be a good book critic, because I find almost all books interesting in their own way. I think, if you really immerse yourself into the book and let your imagination run free, every book is a new adventure. So cliche, I know. BUT. This book,

You MUST read. 

The story is really unlike anything I've ever read before, and asasdjafkjahsdkljf I can't say much without giving it away. I lent it to a friend of mine, and she was just rendered speechless. Heheheh. Okay lah, not really. Her exact words were 'Awesome. Genius. Amazing.' JUST GO AND GET IT LAH ISH. 

2. Playing computer games

Yeaaaaaaaaaaah, hahah. I'm playing computer games. Which I'm downloading from WildTangent games. They usually give one or two free trials, and you can usually finish the games in about 2 hours or so. But here's the catch: you can't leave the game for a certain amount of time. Or else your free trial will be gone and all your hard work along with it. Yes. Hard work okeh. So far I've played quite a number of games - many of them time management & hidden object. Still love those kind of games heh :) Trying to download Harvest Moon, but coming up unsuccessful so far.

3. Catching up on dramas

Another thing I'm being quite unsuccessful at. Before the holidays, I was so determined to catch up on all my favourite dramas - Criminal Minds, Fairly Legal, Suits, Castle, Glee, etc etc etc the list goes on and on and onnnn. But after exams, I just got so lazy. Lazy to what?? you may be asking. Wellllllll, lazy to download. Lazy to sit down and press the play button. Just plain laziness, which you can't really explain. Really. So far the only drama I've half-managed to catch up on is Criminal Minds. I really wonder what happens to the team, hmm.

4. Helping out my mum

My mum has a lot of stuff to do. Computer work, usually. Since she absolutely detests technology, I've to get them done. Mmhmmmz.

5. Preparing for prom

It seems the moment Student Council, or Larry more like, announced 'PROM', panic ensued. What dress am I going to wear must wear heels ah ohmygosh need? dang then how many inches heels to wear how am I going to do my hair who am I going with yadayadayadayadayada all the drama that comes along with prom. Even during A2, prom was always at the back of our minds my mind. It's supposed to be 'the night to remember', right? According to High School Musical lah. Hee. So after A2, I went out dress shopping with my classmates! :) It was fun and stressful at the same time. So cute seeing everyone trying out prom dresses trying to find 'THE ONE'. Hueyying and I ended up the last to pick our prom dresses, at the same boutique. I don't know if it was 'THE ONE', since I liked almost all the dresses I tried on, heheh. (This is what happens when you have low expectations.) but I'm sure it's close :) Also bought em heels in what I call 'desperate shopping', cuz we needed the heels in order to make measurements for the dresses' alterations. And this was the first time I spent 300 bucks at one shot, just like that *snaps fingers* And then there was the issue with hair & makeup & accessories. Wanted to do hair & makeup professionally, but it was a bit too pricey for me. So instead I asked my mummy to do makeup for me instead, and got tips from my cousin (I'm a makeup first timer, heheheh). Made a appointment to do hair at a studio near my house, decided on a style & changed it last minute. Got jewellery after dragging Shman shopping at Summit, with him whining all the waaaaaaaaaaaaaay. And with that, preparations = done! :)

6. PROM! :D :D :D

The day finally came! I woke up feeling excited, then feeling nervous cuz I hoped I would look as pretty as everyone else in the room. Meh. Did my hair, makeup and then went to pick Shman to Lynn's house. We left at 5.30 and reached Renaissance at 6.45? I really do love jams, really really mmhmmmz. Prom was really really a night to remember :) Performances was good, food was so-so, but best of all were the memories made and pictures took :) And everyone looked gorgeous :) :) :) Some pictures:

#1201PM13 sassy family photo ;)

#1201PM13 formal family photo

Charlie's Angels, ;D

With the best friend / 'assumed' date

OH YES MY PLAYGIRL PICTURE HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Leek, who looked dashinggggggggg 

And the ever gorgeous, 10 years friend, Yong Ee Lynn ♥

Oh and for full-er, more detailed versions of prom, here are Lynn's and Hueyying's :)

And now on to things I'll be up to! :)

7. Volunteering at GG

I'm probably going to be volunteering for Generasi Gemilang soon :) Teaching some lil kids, helping out at orphanages, that kind of thing :) Finally. I've been wanting to do something like this for ages, but I never really had the time or opportunity. Or maybe it's just because I didn't make them. Yeah. Looking forward to it, plus I'll get to see Sarah more often! Love that girl to bits! ♥

8. Shooting a video

Details strictly private for now, I think.

9. MALACCA TRIP

YES. IT IS ON. After all our failed plans and all the planning, we are FINALLY going somewhere. We, OUR GANG, ARE REALLY GOING SOMEWHERE. *cries tears of joy* Had to make many changes, but finally. We'll be taking a 2D 1N trip to Malacca! On the 29th to 30th! CAN'T WAIT OHMAIGOSHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH 

10. CF Camp

Also at Malacca, the week after Malacca trip hahahah. Looking forward to having an amazing time there with God and all the rest of the amazing CF people! :)

11. Stuffs.

Idk lah, I'll do stuffs. Heh :P

That's all for now I think. Will update soon :)

Much love ♥ xx 

Feel as though all my hard work's gone to waste. Don't know if I'm annoyed or just really disappointed.

So, what? Because it didn't work out once, we stop trying & don't even bother ever again?

So annoyed atm.

Should prolly stop watching romance movies. Making me feel lonely.

But then again. Every story, whether movie or book, always has a love story. shoots self in head