And... Again.

High school students visited Taylor's today to experience a 'a day in the life of a college student' thing. I was sitting at the booth while doing some work, and I was really stressed up. I really had this urge to go to them and just ruin all their fake hopes and dreams about college life. Scream to them, 'IT'S ALL A LIE!' and just tell them how hellish everything is. That'll scare the crap outta them, they'll run lintang pukang till they reach the end of the earth and think twice about going for college. Meh.

Something's wrong with my knee :( Idk whut exactly happened, but I can't straighten it. Mummy said she got it before- I must've pulled a nerve, she says - and it took A YEAR to heal. You have got to be joking -.-

Hung out at Shman's house after college. His grandma made teh tarik and pisang goreng :) It was delish! :D Shman's grandma makes the best tarik ever omg, I'd been craving for it since Shman's bday celebration. After that, he showed me his UK pictures and most of the time, I just felt jelly. Oh so jelly. And that inspired me to study

- Till I got home.

I've said this many times before, but I'll say it again.

I just want normalcy.
That's not too much to ask for, is it? I don't want perfection, just a sense of normalcy. That's it.

'How do you cope weh?' 
I don't know, I really have no idea.

I Thought ...

                

I wouldn't miss school.

I was so wrong. When you're in high school, ex-students will tell you to appreciate the time you have there, cuz you'll miss it when you go to college. Well, at least that's what my seniors told me. Thing is, I never believed them. I used to shrug it off, cuz college will definitely be WAAAAAAAY better than high school right? Psh. 

I used to think that college life would be really really fun. I mean, we wouldn't have to wake up so early in the morning and be at school at 7.20 anymore. And we wouldn't have to wear uniforms. No more canteen food- we can go out for lunch! We wouldn't be stuck with school rules. Stuck with homework. We'd have cars and we'd be able to go anywhere we want after college. We won't have fixed classes anymore, and we won't have classes one after another for hoursssss. We'd have more freedom, more free time. I'd be able to go out with my friends more often, seeing as how we'd have more freedom and most importantly, transport!

Lies. In truth:
- Classes start at 8. To avoid jam and be there on time, we gotta leave BJ at 7. Which means we have to wake up at 6. 

- Deciding what to wear every morning is hell.

- Deciding what to eat is hard.

- More homework in college than in high school. And you can't even get away with not doing it. The lecturers really check, and punish.

- Have cars? Yes. Go around? No. No time.

- Classes start at 8 and go on all the way till 11. 12 on Thursdays, 1 on Fridays. 1 hour break, then back to college it is for classes till 3 or 4.

- Free time? What's that?

- Transport? Yes. Free time? No. Everyone's plans seem to clash and it's so hard to plan stuff. 

Conclusion:
I miss high school.

Sure, there's ups for college life too, but. Yeah, but. 

It just gets to me- The exhaustion. The endless work. The difficulty of meeting up with the gang. 

I'm just so tired. Day in, day out. I fall asleep every night while studying, exhausted. I wake up in the morning  feeling no better. Instead, I wake up feeling guilty that I'd fallen asleep again while studying. I try to do my homework, but doing homework takes up study time. And I need the time. 24 hours isn't enough anymore. I wish the days were longer. More time to catch up on everything.

I keep saying this, but I really really really really really miss the gang. Some of us aren't getting along anymore, and it's just really sad. Cuz I thought that we'd stay the same, you know? I guess K Fung was right. We grow up, things change, and we've to adapt. We're so far apart now, it sucks. Lynn, Shman, Leek and I are in Taylor's, K Fung and Sehran are in TAR, Evo's in MMU and Jannah'll be going off to KY soon. We don't share the same happenings anymore. Like in high school, if something happens, ALL of us would know about it. But now, I don't know what's happened in TAR, and Evo doesn't know what's happened in Taylor's, etc etc. And I barely get to see them anymore. Once in every few weeks, or maybe once a month. I used to see them every day.
It feels like we're drifting apart :(

Being at school brought up a lot of emotions, I guess. I walked around for a while and bits of memories just hit me. Places like the bench in front of the koperasi, for one. Our hangout spot after school. 

I hate this change. 

Effffffffffffffffffffff.

So pissed. So effing pissed.

Exhaustion

Is something that creeps up on you.

So exhausted right now. Just want to sleep, sleep and sleep.
I regret taking A Levels.

Surprises, Surprises ;)

Warning! :

THIS DUDE IS NOW 18 AND LEGALIZED! o___o

Shman's surprise bday celebration went by without a hitch, woohoo! :D Okay maybe that's a lie, there were quite a number of hitches but the dong didn't suspect anythingggg :P From forcing Keong to drive slow and take a wrong turn and going to Mydin and panicking cuz THE PEOPLE WHO WERE SUPPOSED TO BE AT SHMAN'S HOUSE WEREN'T THERE YET OMGGGGGGGGGGGG. *dies* Meh. And we got him this awesome Starbucks tumbler, which he obviously ♥s :D

So nice, I KNOW :') 

I forgot to pull off the price tag tho, epic fail. Shman turned over the tumbler to see if it was a Starbucks tumbler, and TADAAAAA PRICE TAG! Fail.

Oh wells. Cheers to a bestfriendship that surpasses even relationships ;D

I hate you, you tak guna a hole meanie frigg punya bestie >:D

I Want To Flee.

Lying down in my room with the doors locked. Blowing bubbles, watching them float around in their pretty colours for a lil while, till they pop.

Anyways,
Went to take a look at my would-be cars today. Didn't even take a look at the second one, cause I fell in love with the first :) So yesh, I'm the proud owner of a car! (which I am not gonna reveal) :P hahaha. Imma name it 'Sifu', heee ;) Can't wait to see 'Sifu' waiting outside for me one of the days next week when I get back from college! :)

Off to study Physics now. 4 tests next week, ohmygosh.

Run baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart if we give them the chance,

Save me.

Get Me Outta Here.

My parents have no respect for my privacy whatsoever.

None at all.
Ugh.

There's no trust at all, is there?