earlier, i thought, "how hard could it be?"

well, i've got my answer.

facing the truth, facing reality, is harder than i thought it would be.

just when i thought it couldn't get any worse, it just did.
sigh.

i'm sick. i'm tired of everything. i'm tired of pretending i'm happy when i'm not. i'm sick of faking smiles. i'm tired of saying 'i'm okay' when what i really want to do is yell and scream. i'm tired of trying to join in everything. i'm tired of laughing, tired of being who i'm not. i'm tired of holding back the tears, when i want to cry. i'm tired of doing the same dull thing every day, hoping for something new. i'm tired of hoping for miracles. i'm tired of listening to other people's problems when i can't even solve my own. i'm tired of caring about what other people think. i'm tired of trying. i'm just tired. you get what i mean.

i'm trying to hold on, to keep control. it's just. so. hard ):
maybe i should just go sit in a corner.
btw, this doesn't apply to everyone, kay?

5 more gay things about being a qm :D

11. yelling at lynn/evo/ jnnh about the runners' numbers
12. telling them to slow down! need. to. copy. numbers.
13. wearing black. rumah hitam!
14. joining other rumah sukans. no one knows, cause pakai baju hitam :D
15. staring at runners

plus! runners being going, 'if i hug you then i run faster' or 'f*** you' at us =.="
GAY LAH!

btw, 1st day of cny sucks ): we're stuck at home, and i'm sick ):
JANNAH THIS IS YOUR FAULT!
bye people!

things i want :)

1. a miracle (;
2. a new necklace!
3. the twilight series. except for new moon =.="
4. cecelia ahern's books!
5. a new mp3. mine sucks!
6. *to be filled in later :)*

top 10 gay things about being a qm :D

1. picnics by the roadside
2. being slapped by lynn after yelling cause red ants masuk baju =.=" SAKIT!
3. singing loudly without caring what other people think

*the best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting*

OR

*do you think about me when he f***s you* =.=

4. donating blood to LOTS of mosquitos
5. STOP! WATCH THIS! bla bla, bla bla bla :D and other RANDOM dares to random people!
6. getting to see choc bar again ( isn't this about road run? not qm? ;P )
7. walking all the way cause ruki tak datang >.<
8. guys drinking our water. GROSS!
9. being squashed in lynn's car, and lynn sitting on my lap! ow ):
10. yelling at pbsm's about how they suck.

yay! (: PIES UNITED ROCK! (:

road run rocks :)
qm rocks :)

lifeless >.<
saya jiwa kosong!

you belong with me (:

rawr

I OFFICIALLY HATE 2009, OFFICIALLY HATE FORM 3

1. i hate the teachers. they suck! they bore me to tears, and they piss me off!
2. i hate the freaking form 1s. grr. worst batch of form 1s! >.<
3. i hate the rules! grr. new rules =.="
4. i hate that *censored* (:

come on laa! its form 3, for god's sake! pmr year! can't they get us some better teachers? instead of those who piss the hell out of me and bore us to tears!

but still. road run rocks (: being a qm rocks! read this. singing 'fall for you' and having picnics by the roadside. ruki not coming, and we had to walk. etc etc.

bloggie is dying ): getting lazy to post!

2009 2009 >.<

getting off to a baddddd start for 2009. GRR. >.<

i'm so not looking forward to 2009! ):

another year gone

GOODBYE 2008, HELLO 2009! (:

aww, form 2 is over ): gonna miss 2 omega lahh! all the crazy memories there. (:
the past year was AWESOME! and i'm lazy to list what was so awesome about it -__-

2009, pmr year, last junior year, last year that jnnh and lynn and evo might be here! GRRRRRRR.
i miss 2008 already -__-
and jabby, i missed your birthday, sorry.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TAMB! (: