This Is It.

25th April 2012. That was a huge wake up call. That, and today's movie.

That. was. such. an. eye. opener. The shock, ohmygod. No more slacking. No more 'tmrw', no more 'later', no more 'I'm tireddddddd'. This is it. I'm gonna give it my all, and I trust that He's gonna make a way. I'm gonna work hard, apply for the universities I want, and then I'm going to miraculously get a scholarship to do medicine. 'Facing The Giants' gave me so much inspiration. I've always been worried that I wouldn't be able to get scholarships, and thus I wouldn't be able to go to youknowwhere to further my studies. But 'Facing The Giants' reminded me that all if I give my best, He'll do the rest :D

Focus mode ON :D

*goes to print Bio notes.
Bye peeps! :)

Prayers Answered.

Thank you, God. Thank you.

Like Waterfalls.

Tell me this is just a dream. A bad dream. 

For He Can Do ANYTHING.

'I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.'
Philippians 4:13

'God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.'
God Will Make A Way - Don Moen

'Don't tell God how big your problem is, tell your problem how big your God is.'
Author unknown

'With men this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.'
Matthew 19:26

Worried, so worried.

Stressed.

I've been stuck all day, trying to decide which universities to apply to.

It's make or break. It suddenly hit me today morning- it's not about stuffs like which university is prettier or has a better landscape or anything of that sort. It's the real deal, the decision that will determine how my life is going to be the next few years. So yeah, I've been researching Medicine courses is UK universities since morning, comparing them and seeing which courses I think are best for me. 

My head is throbbing, I can literally cry. I'm so stressed I can scream. I'm scared I make the wrong decisions, and then what? Sigh.

3 down, 1 more to go. Glasgow, Bristol or Edinburgh?

GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Best Friends, Forever and Ever and Ever and Ever ;)

Got friendship bands with Lynn, Jannah and Evo yesterday :) After our pizza-baking session, they went to Giant to get 'engagement rings' for Jannah and Evo xD I couldn't follow cause I had hospital attachment at SJMC, nyeh. While I was getting ready, I got a call- 'Jas Jas Jas what's your ring size?' And then the panic of me not knowing my ring size. They had to pick the only available size (cause got no more stock), and so we were just hoping that it'd fit.

During taekwando, Evo proposed to me :') HAHAHAHAHA. And when I put the ring on, 'OMG IT FITS!' :D Heh. Serious tho, it was like real proposal :P Heheheh. Plus, it's engraved!

♥♥ J ♥ J ♥ E ♥ E ♥♥

For a friendship that will last forever :) We've been through so many ups and downs, and through all the shiz that the world has thrown at us, it's been 5 years and we're still as close as ever :) Last year is proof that no matter what happens, nothing can break us. Pies united foreverrrrrrrrr :D Hee. ♥ you guys :)

And for Shman, who's jelly cuz he can't get friendship bands with us :P HAHAHAHAHA. This is for you,

We ♥ you too, dong! :P

*ew.

To Be Ordinary;

This sounds horrid, I know, but
I don't like being home.

I love my parents, I really do. But being home turns me into an angry, often upset person. I don't like who I turn into when I'm home. We're just not like any other ordinary family.
What I'd do for some normalcy. Even for just one day.

Why can't we just be like everyone else? Is that really too much to ask for?

Ps. I secretly hope you'll see this.
Pss. I know, posts getting depressing. It'll get better soon, I hope :) And then more happy posts will come along! :)

A Silent Cry.

You NEVER listen.
And I mean never.
I have a voice too, in case you never realized.
I may be screaming, but you won't even hear a thing.

Sigh.

Sudden wave of sadness -

I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really miss the gang D: It's been a while since ALL OF US have met up, ALL OF US. It's been so hard lately, what with different schedules and all. I'm confident that our bestfriendship won't be so easily broken, but it doesn't help that we barely get to hang out :/

The trigger?
K Fung's cover photo on facebook. He put it to the one of us during Tim's farewell bbq. One of the few pictures with all of us in it. Been staring at that photo for a while now, thinking.

I miss us. All of us.
:(

This Says It All.

<3 :)

Kay Ell, ;D

Peeps, this post is confusing. You guys won't understand a word, so yeah :P

Had a great day 'exploring' KL with Shman, Lynn, Jannah, Kamal, Haziq and Matthew :D

Memories:

• Jakun-ing on the KTM to KL :P
• Ze graffiti (which we would be seeing another 3 times)
• Getting lost (Lynn actually allocated getting-lost-time) HAHAHAHAH.
• Trade: Directions to Petaling Street for a visit to Muzium Tekstil :D
• Beats by Dr Dre; 75 60 55 50 45 40 35 30 xD
• Walking around aimlessly 
• Lunch at Nando's, Haziq's EXTRA HOT really EXTRA HOT.
• GK and Family Anj
• WHY IS IT SO COLD
• Crossing roads like bosses.
• Dataran Merdeka; condom-searching (HAZIQ)
• OH YOU'RE FROM HONG KONG? WE'RE FROM SINGAPORE!
• Masjid Jamek > KL Sentral > KLCC (via Masjid Jamek). Waste of $$ -___-
• Random stranger: Where do I stop for Titiwangsa?
  'OH, I DON'T KNOW. WE'RE FROM SINGAPORE.' 
• Petrosains closed on Mondays D:
• Waffles, ais kacangs, cendols.
• So much for parks :P
• Completely forgot to go to Muzium Tekstil
• CRAMPED LIKE MAD IN THE KTM
• The commotion due to uncivilized people.
• 7 people in a X-Trail, wooooh! :D 
• Finding out Batu Tiga was flooded
• Kamal's car
• Ze guys pushing Kamal's car.

Memories, memories :') All in all, it was an adventure :) Exhausting, but awesome :D 

AND I ONLY SPENT < RM30! :D So proud of myself :')

Kays, gotta do some preparations for the Euclid Maths thingy. Byebye! :)

Sparks.

Yesterday,
I felt something I didn't want to feel.

Why why why why why why why whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy

Something You Have To Know.

I don't like it when people get too overprotective, I feel suffocated.

I can look after myself, okay?