AND OMGDDDD it's like almost 12, and EVERYONE online, is doing the damn sejarah folio,

i mean wtheck. we have to do 15 pages of hasil kajian, okay?! who won't be pissy?!!!

my eyes are drooping and i want to sleep so badly ): ):

but i can't,

cause if i don't do it, norlia will kill meeeee D;

gahh, i wanna go get a drink of coffee! >A<

so confused, i don't know what to do anymore ):

ashmannn -____-
it wasn't my fault,
it was kamal's! >.<

kamal > jannah > jas > lynn + evo + hari :D
see? kamal's fault XD
oh yeah,! i wanna boast XD i beat ashman in RUSSIAN CHESS TODAY!! ;D
like, YAYYYYYY! (:

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest...Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over it if that trust is ever broken.

haha, go HERE

jas virus,
by ashman -____-

hah. ashman, in your face! :D
you got my virus, haha XD

you betray one of us,
you betray all of us.

here's a lesson for you.

sick ):

gahhhhh. ):
i am like, so sick ):

having food poisoning, for gods' sake.
i have been running back and forth from the goddamn toilet since just now ):

p.s. i miss that HOT HOT guy from the library :/
*drooling at his hotness * :)
and evo, i'm allowed, cause i'm single :)

T.O.R.N

i'm so tired.
i'm tired of helping people out with their sad life, although i can't even help mine.
seems like helping people out, i can do. helping myself, I CAN'T DO.
i'm tired of listening, i want to block out everything.
i'm tired of seeing, what i see just hurts me.
i'm tired of talking, i can't say the things i want to say,
they'd all betray me.

i want to hide myself somewhere,
scream my guts out,
and cry.

funny, isn't it? we always say

"i won't cry when --------"

OR

" i won't cry because ------"

but what happens then?

we cry. we do cry. no matter how hard we push ourselves,

no matter how hard we try NOT to,

we still do in the end.

ohhhh, i'm just so tired.

there are things i want to say,
but i know they'll contradict my last words.
there's things i want to do,
but they'll seem wrong.

i want to let them out,
but what happens then?
i don't want to know.
thank god for you guys.

LYNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN ):

jaaaaas, you are cute :D

lynn not getting po easily?

LICK MY ARSE! ;D

wonder what jannah's doing now?

prefects' camp in a week! ;D

sleeping bag, or NO sleeping bag?? -_____-

hate hate hate stupid pmr geo & sej projects, they suck. so baddddd ):

AND ASHMAN, I HATEEEEE YOU ):

cause you insulted me ): ):

i had A HORRIBLEEEEE FLUUUUU ):

AND YOU WERE MEAN! ):

although you said that I AM CUTE ( + chubby -___- ) after that though :D

" I SWEAR I AM NOT TALKING FOR ASHAN FOR THE NEXT WEEK! "

haha, i am taking that back.

how can someone NOT not talk to ashman for a day, what more a week?

IMPOSSIBLE O.o

need to go to sleep, but can't ):

need to cure flu, but can't ):

SHIT IT, NEED TO DO KAJIANS ):

a huge question mark,

Leona Lewis's Here I Am

This is a crazy world

These can be lonely days

It's hard to know who's on your side

Most of the time

Who can you really trust

Who do you really know

Is there anybody out there

Who can make you feel less alone

Sometimes you just can't make it on your own

haritharan a/l kumaresan a/l punasinggam :D

btw, ashman, I HEART YOU :D
can i have one buck? (:

you think everything i say,

everything i do,

is about you,

don't you think so?

well, here's a newsflash.

not everything is YOU.

i have a life, more than just you.

i know what you're thinking now.

heed my advice,

stop thinking.

there's more to life than you.

200! :D

biatch [check, a leek]

bietch [check, hazwan :D]

bitch [check, someone -__-]

biotch [check, ashman ;)]

biutch [check, jit san! XDD]

gaybian [check, hari ;P]

haha, celebrating my 200th post O.o

and omgggd, new song, by ashman T.T

"up and down, touch the ground,

put me in the mood,

up and down, touch the ground,

in the mood for food!"

okaaaaaaaaaay, i finally understand jannah's point of view

it seems gay somehow -_______-

but still, i like lalabee better! :)

just remembered,my phone got confiscated again! ): my mum saw my msgs, and there were words like - fucker, asshole, bastard, bitch, etc. DIRECTED TO SOMEONE! cause that frigging someone made me pissed! DX i mean comeonlahhh, you can't expect me not to use them! i'm in a sch where EVERYONE uses them kay?! and and i only say those stuff when i'm angry!

i want my phone backkkkkk O;D

and my mum asked me if i'm lesbian. like this-

"ARE YOU LESBIAN?"

cause my msgs to lynn, evo and jannah are full of I LOVE YOUS and DARLINGS -_____-

well, I AM NOT! i LOVEEEEE guys, kay? not those of the same sex! except for lynn, jannah and evo lahh :D

but still, i DO NOT want to like anyone now,

learn this - loving someone means hurting yourself, so why do it?

and you think i'm so happy?

HATE ME, THEN, if that's what you think.

see if i care.

"take a good look at my face

you'll see my smile looks out of place

if you look closer, it's easy to trace

the tracks of my tears"

-Tracks of My Tears

i'm tired of lying.

*screams*

i really don't want to go to sch anymore ):
there's no point, no motivation.
not even lynn, jannah and evo ): ):
pies, you know what i mean.

i hate having to smile and laugh,
looking at you,
i just want to cry with you,
hold your hand,
cause i know, i know how you feel.
stop closing in on me,
open up and let me in.
you know,
i'll always be here.

plain sick of everything going on.

when is it ever going to heal?
when will i stop feeling that stabbing pain everytime a little something happens?

i'm tired of running away,
maybe i should stop?

p.s. haritharan a/l kumaresan a/l punasinggam :D
ATTENTION TO YOU! guys are supposed to tell first lahh, or else you guys have NO BALLS -_____-

lalabee
lalabee
honey bee
in the tree
rest your wings
in the morning
light :D

:DD

shit, shit, shit, shit.

SHIT.

p.s. and omg, i hateeeee that gay moral teacher. tak bermoral, but still teaching us moral =___=
meraba-raba everyoneee =___=

silent scream?

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T_T

okay. 2009 just plain sucks. so many things have happened in just 3 months, many of which i would like just not to remember. thinking of those little things, i remember all the pain and all the hurt. not only mine, but others' too. you pies know what i'm talking about.

is life a game? if it is, when will it end? just when you're thinking that you're happy, something comes and your world is just ripped apart. when you think you know everything there is to know, someone comes and tells you something that you don't know, something you don't want to know.

life, as i put it, is like a rose. it seems so beautiful at first, and you reach out and touch it. then, as you feel the thorns, you pull back quickly. you fear of getting hurt again, so you avoid it. some people grow out of that fear, and they learn and try again. some people are just too scarred to try.
i'm one of those strong ones, hopefully.

isn't that how life is? one good thing comes, and it's always overshadowed by something terrible. why why why?? everything seems so problematic nowadays, it's hard to just get up. sometimes i just want to sleep, and never wake up again. but thenn,..

"do you ever feel like breaking down

do you ever feel out of place

like somehow you just don't belong

and no one understands you?

do you ever wanna run away

do you lock yourself in your room

with the radio on turned up so loud

that no one hears you screaming?

welcome to my life."

but maybe its just a phase? maybe maybe maybe ):

i hardly think so.

and lynn, i am happy, kay? don't worry.

i just need some time. i need to try,

just let things pass.

just let them pass..

" a record is meant to be played,

not broken "