during bio, ashman and hari told me that tiha wanted to re-join the chess competition. so, i had to play against another girl, shaza, to secure a spot on the under 18 girls team. i was so pissed and hurt :(
i was scared :( if i don't get to beat shaza, then all my hard work will go to waste :(
then, during math (teacher didn't come in) ashman wrote on his test pad, "jas, i lied. tmrw's april fool's. tell hari that you're quitting chess tmrw." at first, i misunderstood, so i went "WHAT?!" and hari heard. he tried to get the test pad, but ashman managed to put him off the track :D so in the end, tak jadi. i told ashman to go to beta, and there, he explained. he's kind of backstabbing hari. heh. but as he was a FREAK to lie to me, i gave him a HUGE SLAP ;O
shman, if you're reading this, which i know you will, DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU DID TO ME?! i was frigging scared, you freak! i was half depressed. -.-


anyway, just now, we actually put our plan into action. but for some reason, ashman wanted us to do it today. so, we did. and it was a success. haha basically i just had to tell hari that i decided to quit chess, because i didn't wanna compete with that shaza. and haha hari and ashman HAD TO TELL me that they were lying, and i didn't have to compete with her after all (which i already know). and then, i just had to act pissed :D lynn and jannah got into the act too (: gosh, there were so many convos that the laptop was so slow -.- so, there were andrew, me, jannah, lynn, ashman and most importantly, hari. i think i actually made hari quite depressed when i acted pissed with him and ashman. haha ashman was typical with his 'SORRRRRRRRRY' -.- mengada. 
jannah helped loads, as she seriously rubbed it in XD heeeeee :)


oh and i have awesome news. i played against some random guy, and hari's brother, dayallen, on chess.com just now. and guess what? I WON BOTH XD yay! :D unbelievable. the first guy was without help, but heeee i got some hints from ashman against dayallen :P heeeee. OMG I JUST BEATED A GUY ON MY OWN XD i was gila estatic seh. i was in a call with ashman on msn, and i just almost yelled. it was kinda a squeal. AHHA I'M SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW :)


maybe training hard like crap really did pay off :)


p.s. that post just now was fake. it was to make hari even more guilty. XD

I'M SO PISSED. i never expected that you guys would sanggup do this to me :(


as usual, i'm so easily tricked. fine. 
i've made my decision. i'm quitting. goodbye, late nights till 12. PRACTISING CHESS. 
goodbye, killing my brain to try and analyze movements.


GOODBYE!


this is all your faults. i told you, if you lied, i WOULD NEVER TALK TO YOU GUYS EVER AGAIN.
you promised me it wasn't a lie. and you did.
so, see if i KEEP MY PROMISE TO YOU GUYS.

lol funny :) shman was trying to show me where to get to watch hari playing XD
funny the way he drew it XD
left - chess board
right - chatbox


chess.com :D

during bm today, teacher was teaching komsas - PEMAIN CATUR XD heeeee. we weren't paying attention at all -.- hari and i were trying to ignore ashman for the rest of the day, but it kinda failed -.- oh, and the most hilarious thing - teacher called on ashman to EXPLAIN ABOUT CHESS! XD it was hilarious. ashman drew the chess board, and we complained that he didn't put in the black and white squares. he put in initials of the pieces, and we asked what the initials were XD 
here's what ashman said:

p - pawn / askar

r - rook / istana. LOL XD

b - bishop / paderi

k - knight / kuda 

HAHA LOL. and somemore we asked him to draw the pieces. but he only drew the pawn and the rook :( and he also explained how the pieces moved. haha, hari and i were laughing so hard xD

oh and FRIGGING HARI AND ASHMAN. they splashed water on each other until my skirt and my bag got wet -.-' it all started with ashman kicking hari's leg, since we were ignoring him. and then, hari took his bottle and poured water on ashman's foot. and thus, the water fight started. and i, the innocent person, got wet as well :(

skipped kpa, and instead trained chess with hari, ashman, andrew, sehran and hazwan. i actually played a 15 minute per player game with sehran, the time limit decided by hari and ashman. I HAD NO SAY. it was scary, i was so nervous :/ ish. and i kept forgetting about to PRESS THE CLOCK. there was one time, that i REALLY didn't realise -.-' it was gay -.-' sehran put on an act, as though he wasn't sure what to move. after about, um, 5 minutes? or maybe more? i started thinking "takkan la sehran's so slow" and i looked at the clock. immediately, i went "crap!" i didn't press, and i'd lost so much time -.-'

hee. anyway, i WAS WINNING. SHOCKING :O and NO ONE HELPED. :D maybe my training has paid off! or maybe sehran just made loads of blunders -.- anyway, i'm happy for myself (: 
unfortunately, though, i lost on time. and being nervous didn't help. ashman and hari didn't help either, they just made me even more nervous by going "2 MORE MINUTES!" (hari) and "DON'T THINK TOO LONG, JAS! YOUR TIME!" (ashman). that certainly didn't help -.- 


after that, hazwan and andrew helped me pick openings and gave me some tips :)
for more info, go here


what would i do without you guys?


the most annoying part is when ashman and hari, especially, do the square shape camera thingy with their fingers, point it at me, and go, "WAKIL SEKOLAH". it's embarassing, especially when they do it in front of random people -.- and they have been doing it ever since i managed to get in -___________-


anyway, i resolve to get rid of my current pissiness. might as well be happy, right? :) as hurt as i am, being happy is still more important. like i said, be brave, put on a smile, and face the world :D

sometimes you've just gotta get up, be brave, put on a smile, and go out and brave the world.


somehow it seems as though i always repeat those same actions.

they say a picture paints a thousand words. right now i see a picture of FLAMES. burning flames of anger, flames of hurt. rising higher and higher every second.

ashman and hari tried to teach me blind chess today. blind chess - playing chess without using a board, and pieces, just by using your MIND -.-
can die -.- my brain must've been fried.


T_T
i hope time passes real slowly. next monday should be a LONGGGG LONGGG time to go.

during taekwando just now, we had to practice moving forward and kicking, and pulling back and kicking, using target. PFT black belts and red belts had to do JUMPING FRONT KICK, JUMPING TURNING KICK, JUMPING BACKTHRUST, AND SWING KICK. GR! when i did the LAST swing kick, as i did the swing part, i fell. turned to swing, and FELL. ON ONE SIDE OF MY ASS. IN FRONT OF EVERYONE. EMBARASSING! :(

and then, sir actually made us do free sparring. 2 vs 1 :D awesum! reminds me of gangster fights in taekwando during primary school. ashni, yashini, and me were in one group. damn funny XD we did stupid stuff, like pretending there were guns, and dancing night fever XD hahaa! lol and we named ourselves the charlie angels :D

haha. i'm starting to really enjoy taekwando. heh and waruna had to run THOUSANDS of rounds back and forth just now. PADAN MUKA XD

http://andrewisyourmaster.blogspot.com/2010/03/5-hour-msn-chat.html

i hate the feeling where you like someone, yet know that he's not right for you. and knowing that he'll never feel the same way about you.

ashman, hari, andrew, hazwan, sehran,

i owe you guys LOADS! ;D

jason had his operation at 1.30, and it was a success. it was just a minor operation. and see? my prayers have been answered :)

my mum dropped me at lynn's house at 7 this morning, cause she had to go to the hospital, and couldn't send me to sch at 7.30. heh :) lynn's grandma sent us to sch at around 7.30, and only hari and andrew were there -.-'


at 8, was supposed to go for chess training till 10. but we never did make it for the hosting course after 10 :D
thank you to andrew and hazwan who helped me :) oh and after everyone left, there was just me, hari, and ashman. those two guys, trained me like crazy -.-' it was kinda hilarious, cause we pretended that there was a clock, and we had to tick the moves on a piece of paper. fake clock, fake paper XD haha :) and they also tried to teach me about the notation stuffs. which is kinda easy, after you get the hang of it. ashman tried tricking me by NOT pressing his clock, but he gave it away by trying to stifle his laughter, but failing :) whats more, he ABUSED the clock. ABUSEDDDDDDDDDD it. :O


thank you to hari and ashman, too :) you guys are awesome! all of you!


tried to play a round with ashman, but FAILED. around mid-game, sehran and hari took over -.-' i didn't even know what was going on -.-' see how badly i must've sucked? after ashman went home, hari and i played a round, which i think, i would've lost. TERRIBLY. if hari didn't try to help me. 


oh and you guys, thanks for the books and the cd too! :D
i owe you guys loadssssss :)

oh and i'm not pissed with you anymore. heh.

just. admit. it.
will you?

depressed + depressed = terribly depressed.

sigh :(

i practically wasted 2 hours of my time.

andrew, hari, and hazwan, thanks for salvaging it :)

you guys are the best <3

don't you just hate people who don't keep their promises?

during physics tuition just now:

teacher: find 10 sin 60 / 20 sin 30, etc

us: *calculating*

teacher: gives the right answer without even using the calculator 

O_O

lynn's reaction:

my reaction :D

haha :)

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and thenn:

teacher: find cos 90

jas: *calculating and pressing the = button repeatedly*

WHY CANNOT WAN?

WHY AIN'T THE ANSWER COMING OUT?!

teacher: the answer is 0 right?

PFFFFFFFT -.-

THIS.

see that? my name is THERE! ;D elora and i completed painting the skyline scene at the back of the class during pj today :) we did the windows, the yellow parts there :D i'm happy that i actually did something more to help, as i didn't really do much last time. i feel much better (:

ashman and hari persuaded me to join the selection for the mssd chess competition, as they said that i was okay, and it was easy for girls, because not many girls are interested in chess, and the girls that do join, they don't have the skills -.- thenn, sehran and andrew started saying that i had the skills, and that i had the mindpower. you guys can't possibly be serious. I SUCK. honestly saying, i think the only time that i was really good in chess was in form 2. too bad, ashman missed it :D haha! i played chess EVERY DAY. with nafis, kamal, hazwan, amir and etc. during that time, i actually won against hari, kamal, amir, kuok fong, and mostly, NAFIS XD heh heh. good times. i remember lynn was always pissed at me during those times, cause every time she wanted to talk to me, i would be playing chess. it all started with nafis- "JAS DO YOU WANT TO PLAY CHESS?" and gah, there started my obsession. which ended in form 3. and thus, i suck. but still, i took the bait, and i joined.

each team can only have 4 people. as it turns out, there were only 4 under 18 girls, so all of us automatically got in. yay! :D now ashman has to train me for mssd. he promised :)
it was boring, so i played chess with jannah, and i won :) hahaaa. but i made so many careless mistakes -.- played with sarah after that, ASHMAN'S PROTEGE ;D and haha, it was a draw :D

i went home at 4.30, and from what i knew, ashman got 3 1/2 points and andrew got 3 points out of 4, and they're definitely going through. congrats, you two! :D

oh and there's a course on hosting tmrw. i'm going! it's about being hosts to exchange students or other people and bringing them around and stuff like that. 8-12, and it's on saturday too. sigh.

somemore at 3.30 tmrw, i'm gonna go to sch again. they're having selection for the under 15 group for the chess for mssd, but there's going to be a coach. i'm definitely going :D

oh well, i'm gonna have to train LOADS. the competition is on the 5th of april. 

gosh, THAT EARLY?! oh well, i gtg.

bye :)

today, lynn, jannah, ashman and hari went for audition for the english drama competition. i wanted to join, but oh well. my mum used reverse psychology on me, so. sigh :(

oh well. during bio today, we went to the lab cause we were supposed to do an experiment on observing plant cells in hypotonic, hypertonic, and isotonic solutions. ahha. we only managed to do one, because ashman and hari suddenly just got the idea to catch an ant, put in under the slide, and view it through the microscope. it was so grossssss -.- ew. i could actually see the hairs on its legs, and it was trying so hard to wiggle out, i almost felt bad for it -.-' thenn, we started taking random stuff to view under the microscope. it was like in high definition HD! XD ahha. we took ashman's skin, zee's scar, *ashman's ......, my hair and lynn's hair :)

SKINS AND SCARS ARE GROSS. THEY'RE BROWN AND THEY LOOK SO DISGUSTINGGGG -.- oh and teacher actually viewed the zee's scar -.- or was it ashman's skin? i'm not sure. heh :D 

ahha and my hair is BROWN! awesomeeeee :D lynn's is seriously jet black. there's not even a trace of black :O awesome right? :D heh heh. and our hair is healthy :) there's no breaks or whatever they call it in the tv commercials -.- 

we can make our own commercial :

'to get FREE hair check ups, and to know your REAL hair colour, come visit us!' haha XD

ahha. oh and i remember, on monday, ashman was trying so hard to crack his leg XD haha. he was doing it during salasiah's class somemore -.- he wanted to crack it since early morning but it just wouldn't crack. pitaaaaaaay. not really xD it was funny! haha, sorry shman :D

gotta do sej project, gah! oh and gotta plan the english drama as well. sighhh :/

i wanna sleep, i'm so tired :(

liverpool vs man utd

after such a perfect 5th minute header goal by torres, everything went wrong. and you guessed it. liverpool lost :(

sighhhhhhh.

oh well, there's still next time :(

this might be a really long depressing rambling post, so i suggest you don't read it. read at your own risk.

the one thing i really hate about my parents, is how much they're not satisfied with me, and everything i do. they don't appreciate the person that i am, and they only like certain parts and aspects of me. but as a parent, i think that you should accept your child as they are. i mean, if your child is horrible and mean and does EVIL things, you shouldn't just let him be. but if he/she is alright, and isn't BAD at all, why not just look at the more positive side? my parents mostly focus on my bad traits, and not on my good traits. what they never realise is, my good traits, when compared to my bad traits, THERE'S TONS MORE TO MY GOOD TRAITS THAN MY BAD TRAITS. they always dwell on the negative, and they almost NEVER see the positive. UGH.

when i was younger, i used to tell my parents about my friend's parents, like 'they don't do this' or 'they do that'. things that my parents do that i feel ain't right. and then they'll tell me that 'if you like them so much why not take them as your parents instead?' 

right now, my parents are NEVER SATISFIED with anything i do. my room is too messy, i don't help out enough at home, and i waste too much time, ETC. PLEASEEEE. my room is alright, it's just books strewn on the floor. i help out SO DAMMIT MUCH and it's not like you see. i barely have time to do my own stuff, like my homework. sometimes, i've gotta stay up till 12 to do just SOME of my HUGE LOAD of homeworks. and WASTE TIME? I DON'T EVEN HAVE THE TIME TO WATCH TV! what's more? they say this out in front of my relatives just do make me feel bad, and they compare me to other people. WELL, I'M SORRY I CAN'T REACH YOUR QUALIFICATIONS! can't you just accept me for who i am?! everyone else does! instead of comparing those stuff, why not compare other stuff like (i'm sorry to bring this up) my results and how much i try to study?! i'm sorry, but usually people they compare me to are the ones who spend their whole lifetimes sitting in front of the comp or the tv, and just abandon their studies. find someone who excels in everything, and i'll CHANGE. meanwhile, if you're not happy with me, why not just take that kid instead?!

oh and my dad, he ALWAYS simply blames and yells at me for stuff that I DIDN'T DO. when i try to explain, he says stuff like, 'shut up and don't give excuses' or 'DON'T ANSWER BACK'. this isn't answering back, it isn't even an excuse. it's called an EXPLANATION. and when he realises he's wrong, he doesn't make it right. he doesn't apologize or anything. he just acts as though nothing's happened.

we were at the pasar malam just now, and my dad was leaving. my mum and my grandma were still there, and my grandma was alone. my mum was nowhere to be seen. so i told him that i'd wait for my mum and grandma. he started yelling about me being stupid, and he told jason that he wanted to SLAP ME. i have no idea what i did wrong. i think that waiting wasn't a bad thing, it was a good thing. 

if anything i say or do offends you, FINE! i won't bother talking to you, then. i did it once, and i'll do it again. as long as you stay that way, i'm gonna continue not talking to you. it's not gonna hurt me, instead, i won't be the victim of you anymore.

god, what have i ever done to deserve this? :(

according to you

i'm stupid, i'm useless

i can't do anything right

IT'S NO WONDER I TURN TO MY FRIENDS FOR EVERYTHING.

1u trip with fui jinn and fui nyuk today :) jason came too, obviously.
we watched : THE LOVELY BONES, and GOSH it is awesome :) seriously awesome! :D there's LOADS of suspense, and i love the way the director directed the whole thing ♥ oh and jason is a CHICKEN! he kept covering his eyes -.-
and WTHECK? THERE WERE ONLY 7 PEOPLE IN THE CINEMA. us, plus an old lady and an old guy -.- siao!


trip started at 11, we met up at mcdonalds and PLAYED CARDS. it's a TRADITION. we made friends by playing cards, so every time we meet up, there MUST BE CARDS. HEH ;D played choi dai di and bullshit. obviously, nobody wins bullshit. -.-' 


thenn, the movie. after the movie, we walked around fr a while, then dropped by at popular bookstore, cause i wanted to buy books. i got to buy 'twenties girl' by sophie kinsella :) there were some other books i wanted to buy too, but not enough cash, so, :(


had late lunch at pizza hut. heh lunch at 3pm :D i was thinking of all the times i scolded evo for having late lunches XD but what to do? movie started at 12 and ended at 2 something wad :) again, played cards, and TRUTH OR DARE ;D fui jinn had to eat a slice of pepperoni drenched with tabasco, pepper, chilli sauce, pepsi, and uh uh cheese :O gross. and spicy. HAHA XD i was lucky, i didn't get! :D


after that, everyone went home :( jason and i waited at popular bookstore again, and i bought another book. it's called 'the game of life, and how to play it' :D heh. 


i miss fui nyuk and fui jinn already :(
who knew we would be so close after knowing each other for just 5 DAYS? :O
i love you guys!

IT'S 3AM AND I CAN'T SLEEP :(
what's more, i've got a big day tmrw :(

IT'S WORKING :D
and everything is STILL HERE! YAY! ;D


thank you arthur :)

I'M SO PISSED. my comp just WON'T START. the only thing that comes up is "WINDOWS EXPLORER HAS ENCOUNTERED A PROBLEM AND NEEDS TO CLOSE" wtheck?! EVERYTHING i saved in there is GONE :(

GONE :( 

all my pictures! all my files :(

some of them i can't even get back EVER AGAIN :(

piano theory exam just now. twas okay, just that i left two questions blank.

affetuoso, and COMODO.  i was like, wth is comodo? i felt like putting in:

comodo: DRAGON XD

heh heh. overall, it was okay :)

(؛ ʎsuʍop-ǝpısdn ƃuıןǝǝɟ ɯ,ı

went for taekwando just now. it starts at 5.15. i reached at 5.10 and guess whut? i saw ashman and hari playing badminton! ;D oh and ashman's dad and youngest sis too. wonder where my darling sarah was :O

was quite distracted watching them play till i wasn't really focusing on what sir was teaching. gosh, could've died -.-

they went back at 6.30, i think. ashman was nice, atleast he said bye ;D actually, he yelled. "BYE JAS!" ;D ahha. hari was a freak. meanie beanie -.-

(!)

drafts!

i think i'll just post everything here while i still remember. gah! oh well, let's see.

(1)

For the public speaking impromptu round, i did horribly. i stammered loads and had practically no points at all. i went back early cause i had tuition at 3, so i didn't know how everyone else did, except that aqil was awesome! i msged mario, and he told me that i got into the top 5, out of the 8 people there. i was so surprised cause i really did horribly. oh well, and i was against aqil, sharanya, mario and mikhail. OW. my first thought was "SHIT SURE DIE."

the next selection was supposed to be on the next day but tch was too busy with the spm stuff so she said that she'll just choose the best two, and there won't be a selection. which means, i'm definitely out. i was so disappointed cause i really wanted another chance, after my disastrous last round :( i really really wanted to make it to the competition :(

sigh :(

(2)

road run was boring -.- us pbsms for checkpoint 1 (kar yan, jannah and me)(and yes, it's jason's friend kar yan) had to walk to the cp which is after petronas cause shah rafidzah disappeared and we couldn't find her. instead of following norshimah (HELL NO!) we decided to walk. she was reluctant to send us anyway. we waited at our cp for more that 30 mins before they actually started -.- oh and we had to sit in front of this huge hole so that the students won't fall in and die -.- PFT PEOPLE AREN'T BLIND -.- and so we sat, and waited. and waited. and waited. oh and FRIGGING USTAD. GRR.

and thenn, they started running. haha i managed to get some really funny pics XD heh heh :D since there really wasn't anything going on, we left the spot and went to the playground nearby, which was supposed to be our original cp. the tchs just put us in front of the hole to warn students. again, THEY'RE NOT BLIND -.-

ahha we played on the swings :D soon after, everyone left and we were STILL PLAYING SWINGS XD and so, we had to walk back. actually, we had to walk back cause teacher ABANDONED US. wtheck?!

at sch, the pos malaysia people were selling stamps and philatelys? they were so pretty, i couldn't resist. so i borrowed cash from jannah and bought them! yay! ;D looks i'm gonna start collecting stamps again! i actually started when i was stad 5 but then stopped. haha i should continue now :)

after that, they had the prize-giving ceremony. jannah, lynn, evo, me, mario, and ashman were sitting at the back being bored, so lynn decided to play truth or dare. it got boring, so we decided to play spin-the-bottle instead. instead of the western version (which is kissing), we made our own malaysian version, which is just touching each other. mario was FRIGGING SARCASTIC. after he touched evo, he went like "OOOH!" siao -.-' and thenn, we played the scissors, paper, stone game with slappings :D i hate playing with evo, she made me have internal bleeding :( heh heh no one wants to play with her xD jannah's a diff matter. playing with her consists of her delightfully slapping your hand, but when it's your turn, she whines and moves her hand away -.- HAHA ;D mario's a chicken btw. MARIO'S A CHICKEN! he didn't even try to play once -.- evo was whining like crap, since no one was playing with her. so then khai kern came and so she destroyed him :D

(3)

my mind hadn't yet registered that it was the last day before sch holidays, GAH! i completely forgot :(

bye you guys! i'm gonna miss your antics! :D

(4)

i'm going for the gunung angsi (is that how you spell it) thing. who's with me? :D

(5)

watched the 'FIRE PROOF' movie yesterday. it's kind of like a christian movie, about marriage. really really touching. i wanna watch it again. i hope the church'll have a 4th screening. i'm gonna drag loads of people :)

spm results was funny. evo cried like crazy when tch announced that her sis got 11As. SIAO. i was standing beside her, and she suddenly SHRIEKED and started crying like crazy -.-'

siao, i tell you, siao. heh atleast i got a taste of what it was like when evo got her pmr results XD

lazy wanna update the rest. maybe later?

oh and my comp's internet is having problems T.T

i realise i do this whenever i'm mad:

at first, i'll be thinking:
"please please please say sorry. i don't wanna not talk to you. please say sorry. please?" :(

thenn:
i just really miss talking to you. even if you don't say sorry, i'll talk to you, hoping that you'll realise your mistake.

but you never do. and i end up being hurt again. it's happened countless times.

i'm trying to change. really, i am. it just isn't working.
dear m, go away. i've lost all hope in you now.

evo: you're too forgiving, jas. too forgiving. you'll get hurt easily.
cousin: too trusting.

yes, you two. i know i always forgive too easily, and give away trust too easily, too quickly. and yes, i know. in the end, i'll get hurt easily too. like i said, i never learn from my mistakes. it's been repeating time and time again, but yet, i NEVER learn. sighhh. why can't i change? :(

5th march 2010
lemme break this down fr you:
1. road run. ran-walked with evo :D heh we were around the middle, i think. at least not last, or almost last xD
2. after road run, the muslims had some zakat thingy. lynn was agitated the whole time, and evo was being bored so i invited mario to come over to our class xD we played truth or dare. THE MOST DISTURBING TRUTH OR DARE I'VE EVER PLAYED -.-
p.s. girls can masturbate meh? -.-

3. I'M SO PROUD OF MYSELF! i actually helped to paint the class! my FIRST time ;D and and it was fun ;D everyone who was doing work were busy cursing. hahaaa. conclusion, painting brings out loads of cursings xD hahaa! oh and KAMAL CAME! sorry kamal! i didn't know you were coming, and i missed you loads, so i'm sorry that i kinda attacked you. heh :P
elora was SUPERBLY AWESUM! she drew the empire state building with SO. MUCH. DETAILS. it looks pretty :) go elora! :D
i was actually only supposed to paint for an hour cause i had to do medic duty at 4-6 and we started at 3. but the road run was canceled cause it was raining :O so i helped till the end of afternoon session, which was 6.40 ;D
thanks to those who came: kuok fong, ashman, zee, hari, julia, lynn, elora, evo, jannah (eventhough you guys aren't from our class ;D ), and whoever else i missed out yeah? :)

important!
DRAFTS, JAS. DRAFTS!

why don't i ever learn from mistakes? why do i always not learn?! got myself hurt once, and now, once again, i find myself repeating the same mistake.

now look what's happened.

oh, and i read lynn's book,

to forget you by low kay hwa

yesterday. it's about forgetting your true love. the story's really sweet, but the ending was predictable, and i dislike the ending!

it's still a good read, however :)

dear a,
to hell with you. i'm superrrrr pissed. grr.

please la, hitting a person's hand till it's red means that it's really painful. if it wasn't, i wouldn't have said that it was- i'm not that type of person. and thenn, you just don't say stuff like 'omg is it red? OH SORRY are you gonna cry?' or stuff like that. sarcastically. it stings. i mean, how irritating can you be? it's not as though it was not painful, cause it most definitely was. even annoyingness has its limits!
not gonna talk to you. sorry for you, i hold grudges.

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and today, jannah, evo and i burned something, ;D

here are the pics:

before burning!

during burning.

doesn't it look awesome? :D

after. beautiful.

we wasted a WHOLE BOX OF MATCHES to burn ONE SMALL PIECE of that something.

only one left :D

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oh and gotta tugas as medic tmrw during road run practice for form 1s and 2s. 4pm till 6pm. which means i'll only get to paint the class for an hour :(

also, gotta tugas during the real day, next week friday. sigh.

reminder (!)

check draft right before this post.

2nd march
we finally did our drama today. the whole thing was quite a mess, but totally worth it :D saadiah kept laughing, and during the last part, where i died, lynn said that she saw saadiah cry! :O heh and she complimented ashman on his acting skills :) , told lynn that she was evil, and that i suited the character, since intan maliana was supposed to be sweet. :D
hmm what else did she say? oh yeah! she said that she felt nervous and scared during the ashman-driving scene, macam nak accident -.- hahaaaa that was hilarious -.- during that part, all of us were too busy laughing. lynn was the nurse, and she couldn't stop laughing. when ashman and zee ran to her and told her to help me, she laughed like crap. "WAIT WAIT FIRST!" *takes deep breath* * walks over to me*. thennn, she frigging told me to push, but i couldn't do the planned scream, cause i was too busy laughing as well -.- pft thenn she FORCED ME TO SCREAM -.-

watched it back on the vid, i look so frigging gay -.-

i can still remember everything so clearly (;

hmm what else? after the giving birth scene, lynn put 'ahmad and muhammad' outside the class, on the chair, with all our other props. the frigging form 5s, nedree, mario, mikhail, and some others, took it and totally destroyed it -.- the frigging pulled them apart, kicked them around, pulled off one of the heads, etc. -.-
EW -.-
we had to go over and ask for them back -.- sighhhh. -.-

i got it all on camera, YAY! ;D
i wanna go watch it again :)

3rd march
we had a sivic project, in which we had to do a motto or smth. our group consisted of zee, me, lynn, ashman, elora and hari. heh :D our motto is s(preet). SONIA PREET ;D it started with hari who wanted to do PENG -.-
lemme tell you more:
s - super
p- perfection
r- resistance (to temptations and stuff)
e- excellence
e- efficience
t- tolerance

so, s(preet) = super perfection + super resistance + blablabla xD
how cool is that? :D

what else? we decided to paint our class! :D the front'll be a new york skyline theme, and the back'll be hollywood walk of fame :D
the temboks'll be buildings such as the statue of liberty, empire state building, etc.
we came up with such nonsensical ideas -.- chandeliers, air conds, changing the windows, hari's dad sponsoring tiles, etc. ;D
FUNFUNFUN ;)

painting sessions:
fri 3pm, and
sat 9pm.

come, or pay 15 bucks. the rest only have to pay 10 ;D

26th feb 2010

oh well, since this is supposed to be kind of. kind of. a secret , i'll just schedule it for AFTER we've done the presentation. heh :D
awesum kn? :D

oh so, today at 4-6.30 we had drama practice at zee's hse. actually it was a bm presentation on papa, about the pengajarans and stuff. but we decided to do some acting to make in FUN ;D besides, we asked saadiah and she said it was up to us, since creativity was counted :)

met up at zee's house at 4. elora couldn't come cause she was cycling and it looked as though it was gonna rain. uh uh so, there was just me, lynn, ashman, hari, and zee. first 1/2 hour, we didn't really do anything much cause we were busy laughing. typical. heh :) for every scene, there seemed to be something really hilarious. which would make us BURST out in laughter for at least a minute or so. and there goes our time -.-
we were supposed to only stay till 6, but since we couldn't finish it by thenn, we continued till 6.30
typical us lah. laughing like CRAZILY A LOTTTT till we wasted SO MUCH TIME. SO. MUCH. TIME. but the point was, atleast we enjoyed ourselves.
although it's not perfect, it's okay. it's funny and (hopefully) people'll find it interesting :)

haha. i'm gonna bring my camera :)
wish us luck! :D

last uh, thursday, pn marina announced that sunway university college was having a public speaking competition. the prizes were:

1st place : rm 8000

2nd place : rm 6000

3rd place : rm 4000

3 consolation prizes : rm 2000

so, i joined. actually, i just wanted the cert from "SUNWAY UNIVERSITY COLLEGE" :O
getting first prize would be awesum though :)

so today, we had tryouts cause only 2 people from each sch would be chosen. my turn was 4th, and i was FRIGGING NERVOUS.
1. cause there were only 2 form 4s, me and hazwan. thus, nobody to encourage me! HMPH TO YOU GUYS who CAME FOR DRAMA PRACTICE BUT DIDN'T EVEN COME FIND ME ! D:
2. cause MR MARIO GRUBER sorta yelled when it came to my turn -.-
3. cause my voice became serak :(

my hands were shaking, my feet were shaking, i forgot my lines, and everything that has to do with stage fright just CAME FLOODING BACK T_T

oh well, i don't know if i did okay, but teacher (thamil selvi) was okay about it. she was like "you nervous is it?" -.- HECK YEAH I WAS -.-

looked at teacher's paper after that. i got a star next to my name :) which means i'm in the top 6 -.- pfft, there were 10 competitors! ;D
there'll be another round, impromptu round. doubt that i'll make it though, up against TOUGH competition: hazwan, aqil, mario, mikhail, sharanya and dayana.

sigh. i'll just try my best and see if i get in :)

oh and leek, this is specially for you:

"also, spend more time with your loved ones, be it your family, or your friends. (oh and YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER) relationships give us more happiness than any other material thing in the world. at those times, be sure to devote your FULL UNDIVIDED ATTENTION to them. or else, what's the point?! "

HAHH ;D

i got another buck from leek today. ustad azka passed evo and i his sijils and stuffs for passing his wira alam thingy tahap 2. heh. so evo took his stuff, i took his sijil. and we both asked him for A BUCK ;D

still, congrats, leek! :D