Pause.

Days have been passing by too fast, too fast. Too many things happening at the same time. Too much.

I think I can't handle.

Sometimes second chances go to the people who deserve them less.

Always the listener, always always.

Stupidity At Its Finest.

In the car today morning, Shman was telling me and Lynn about an 'argument' he had with his mum. He was talking really really softly, and I could barely hear.
So I reached for the radio to turn up the volume.
Heh xD

So tired. And sleepy.

More Than Conquerors.

Romans 8:37
Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us.

Because of what He's done, we can get through anything :) Not because of who we are, but because of what He's done.

Sudden memory: the other day, Lynn said that she can see that I'm really really happy whenever I'm at CF. I like that :)

Now playing: Who Am I - Casting Crowns

Two Years Ago Today

It's 14th July. Funny how time went by without me thinking about it, but I just woke up, saw the date and it hit me. Like, ow.
Oh well, sometimes we have to remember. Or rather, the mind forces us to. To see that it wasn't all bad, instead it was mostly the opposite. Time to take a step back into the past, I guess. Remind myself of who I used to be two years ago.
Hm.

Waitingggggggggggggggggg

For Lynn to finish 'cheating' on her moral paper. Those people ah, serious amazing.

I want ice cream.

Stressed.

*goes and bangs head against wall*

Repeatedly.

Frustrated.

Projects, club work, studies, a certain problem, and now this. 

It's like I don't have enough things to worry about. 

I Am Happy :)

... and it feels good :D

Friends: Jas you're so pretty today!
Me: Fine la, today only pretty :(

Hahahah that was fun ;D

Just drove back in the rain :) Heavy rain somemore. Alone somemore. Almost got lost after sending Zi Min home somemore. Bad jam somemore. Badly needed to pee somemore -.- Such an adventure :'D *sarcasm intended*

Anyways, thank God for journey mercy :)
And also for showing me that I'm not alone in my problem, and giving me someone whom I can talk to, someone who understands. He's been working in my life and showing me so much more of Him ever since camp. So when people ask me how camp was, I mean it when I say that it was amazing :) Best decision I ever made, going for CF and attending camp :)

Amazing :)

CF yesterday was amazing. I was so happy to see so many new faces from the July intake, God really answered my prayers. And for me, another affirmation was brought by our special speaker yesterday, Alvin's friend, Jonathan. Affirmation, really. And I thank Him so much for that.

A thousand times I've failed

Still Your mercy remains

And should I stumble again

I'm caught in Your grace

Everlasting, Your light will shine when all else fades

Never ending, Your glory goes beyond all fame.

Thank you, Father. Thank you. 

Other than that, it's been a great week so far. I'm a little exhausted, but who isn't, right? I've been trying to make changes, and I'm happy to say that that's going well :) Trying to find Him and walk with Him once again. It helps that we've prayer meeting every morning, too. OH AND ANOTHER AMAZING THING: PRAYER MEETING HAS INCREASED IN NUMBERS! :'D

Prayerfully, it'll be another great week ahead :) I can't wait to see what more He's gonna do :)

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour

Back from CF camp, and I feel restless already. I miss it, so so much. I just wanna go back and relive it again and again and again and again and again. Three amazing days with Him, away from the world and all its problems. Three amazing days.

Really, God was with us throughout the whole camp. I could really just feel His presence there, in a way that I've never felt before. The sermons by Pastor Dave, all 3 sermons spoke to my heart. It as though those sermons were made just for me, and God was telling me that 'Jas, listen. This is what I'm saying to you.' He knew what I was going through, and He knew exactly what I needed to hear, and He spoke to me through Pastor Dave. The first sermon was about 'Peace', and that night, I felt God's peace. Just this really calm, comfortable feeling. The second session was 'Confidence'. Not confidence in ourselves, but confidence in Him. Third session, was 'Surrender'. And this time, He really showed himself to me. Pastor called us for altar call, and I went. I wanted to surrender my problems, my life, everything, into His hands. And then Pastor came to pray for me, and as he prayed, he just knew things that he shouldn't have known, and I knew then God was speaking to me. He knows, He knows what I do, and yet He didn't judge me, He didn't condemn me. Instead, He called out to me, 'My child'. 'My child', oh gosh. God's love for us never wavers. He doesn't care how much we've sinned, how much we've pushed him away. His love never fades. And that is true love.

Other than that, it was a great time of fellowship with the campers :) It was nice to meet new people, and just  get so close to them in just a few days. I was in Team Charmander, heh heh, and our team consisted of Adele, our team leader, Andrew, Jared, Basile, Pei Shin, Eugene, En Leang and me. We started off really badly in the games, and we were waaaaaaaaay behind everyone. But with teamwork when it came to the sports games, we managed to take second place! :D Also, we had 'Angels and Mortals', and I got John as my mortal. It was fun giving stuff and doing stuff for John, if only for his reaction xD My angel, whom I thought was a guy, turned out to be Kristal, whom I'd been telling about what I wanted from my angel. Serious dash dot dash weh -.- Had heart-to-hearts with the girls on both nights, especially the second night. We talked about anything and everything, from boys to our problems and about God. We sat on Ju Lynn's bed, talking about our most personal matters as though we've known each other forever, and I only went to sleep at about 5. Of course, I woke up late the next day, 15 minutes before devotion and had to rush. Oops :P

The best part of camp, I think, would be the second night. The altar call, seeing how He just touched everyone's hearts. Getting to extend our 'curfew', and we all stayed outside till 1.30 just talking and having so much fun in the night :D And once we got back to our dorms, us girls had our heart-to-heart talks.

This camp has just taught me so much. So so so so much, and I'm so glad that I went. Honestly, I didn't wanna go home.

It's gonna be hard, going back to real life where there are so many distractions and temptations, but I know I can do it. This time, I've surrendered to Him and with Him guiding me, things are gonna be okay :) I'm gonna put Him first and glorify His name.

He truly is a beautiful saviour.