ow ow ow. >.<

school will be so different. i think ):

school is back. in about a week. ughh. part of me wants to go back, BADLY!

but part of me doesn't want to. *sigh*

;P

i miss you i miss you i miss you ):

p.s. guys, don't msg or call me anymore. my phone has been rampas-ed again. i'll explain later, if i can. sorry ):

us against the world - christina milan

If the sun shuts down and decided not to shine no more

I would still have you, you, you ,you, you, you, you

If we see the last day and they say we gotta go to war

I'll be fighting with you, you, you ,you, you

Because it's us against the world

Nothing's stronger now than you and I

Cause your love is all I got

And this ain't never gonna stop

No, whoa

There's no distance here when we're apart

Come on in from the cold

Lay your head on my shoulder

Ride like a soldier

I'm gonna stay right here

i don't know what to post. i'm bored, i'm lazy!

i wanna go out! out for the trip. counting down, 4 days left.

i wanna go to the basketball court, but i can't. not till next weds.

i want jnnh and lynn here, NOW! but they can't come over.

i wanna crap with someone, but no one is online! ):

*wails*

pics pics pics!

tada! my liverpool jersey!

early christmas present (:

evo! (:

brother, and cousin

jas & joan (:

haha, chinese new year clothes >.<

all i want for christmas (;

- my ONLY wish to come true, PLEASE?? ;D


dear santa, its not much, you know?? grant it?? please please please??

if i were a boy (:

tagged by lynn (:

Rules :
- Pick your birth month .
- Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you .
- Bold the best apply to you .
- Copy to your own blog , with all twelve months .
- Tag 10 people.

JANUARY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves travelling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills.Talk ative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

AUGUST
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER
Has a lot of ideas. Difficult to fathom. Thinks forward. Unique and brilliant. Extraordinary ideas. Sharp thinking. Fine and strong clairvoyance. Can become good doctors. Dynamic in personality. Secretive. Inquisitive. Knows how to dig secrets. Always thinking. Less talkative but amiable. Brave and generous. Patient. Stubborn and hard-hearted. If there is a will, there is a way. Determined. Never give up. Hardly becomes angry unless provoked. Loves to be alone. Thinks differently from others. Sharp-minded. Motivates oneself. Does not appreciate praises. High-spirited. Well-built and tough. Deep love and emotions. Romantic. Uncertain in relationships. Homely. Hardworking. High abilities. Trustworthy. Honest and keeps secrets. Not able to control emotions. Unpredictable.

* i made them italic cause bold isn't tht clear (:
** teehee :) i'm not even sure of what i am myself! XD

DECEMBER
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor

the 10s you wanna tag.
uhh. lynn tagged almost everyone! =_=

1. jannah
2. lynn? (:
3. evo
4. nik! ;D
5. leeking
6. ah keong
7. dash
8. nafis
9. kml
10. yiling

underdog!

she hates it
but she takes it
watch out for that girl
one day she may change the world!

haha. i'm helping jnnh promote.
my #1 fav song right now :D
view it here
lalala~ :)

grr. i miss you guys!! >.<

looks or personality?

grr. i argued with my cousin yesterday. and about what? the title says it all. she says that looks are important, while i said that personality is more important. grr. she says she's attracted to guys that look HOT. not because of their personality or anything, but because they're hot. i mean, WTH?! =.=" come on laa. and whats more, i had just been insulted of my looks by someone, whom i'd rather not name. GRR.

so, looks or personality? i think personality. looks are important, but i dont think any relationship, even friendship, can last just because you like the other person's looks. its pointless. looks aren't everything, like they say ' its inner beauty that counts '. and i think that's true. what's the point if a person is attractive, but their just terrible, terrible people inside? whats the point? i'm not saying that looks aren't important in life. looks are important, but not as a whole. they just play a small role. so what if you're attractive-looking? SO? its not like looks can guarantee you a happy, successful life, right?

we've been deceived by this generation's point of view. we admire people because of their looks. i'm not saying that it's wrong, but. imagine if we picked a president, or someone important, because of their looks, but they're terrible at what they do. the world would just come crashing down. personality is a much bigger part of life. a person with a powerful, strong personality may just be guaranteed a great life. while those with weak, soft personalities will just, lose out.

picking someone as a friend, or as your partner in any relationship, whether its friendship, love, business, etc. wouldn't work out if the only steady ground is looks. wouldn't it be better to have someone whom you can communicate with, share your troubles, work together, etc?

grr. i think i've ranted enough >.<
this is for kml, pfft. see? i updated. now read and COMMENT. ;P

*sigh* D':

maybe it was meant to be this way,
but it just seems so wrong.
what use are hopes,
if they don't ever come true.
the feeling of hopeless,
so overwhelming.
i need to stop dwelling on this things.
prayers and hopes are never enough.


lynn, i need you ):

time and time again;

its all gone,
all hopeless now.
let's just turn away.

i want to be alone. leave!
don't ask me whts wrong. i won't tell.
):

why not?

all because i was feeling so stressed,
i scored four goals in basketball.
3 in a row, omg.!! without even going round the hoop thingy, just went in, straight! O.o
the other one was much later.
i couldn't believe it either.
i felt so much like yelling, and i did.
grr. ):
i'm lost. i dont know what to do. )':

i am myself, nothing will change :D

not as pretty as lynn,

not as fun as jnnh,

not as sweet as evo,

teehee.

still, i am me! :D

sorry tamb. i was bored. teehee, nthing else to do!

20 questions people don't ask

i'm bored. and decided to do a survey. grr. killing time :D

when was the last time you ran?
- uhhh. just now. to pick up my phone!

do your jeans have rips/ tears/ holes in them?
- pfft. i don't think so!

what are you dreading right now?
- THE RAIN! STOP STOP STOP!

do you celebrate 420?
- whts 420? -___-

do you get the 8 full hours of sleep every night?
- NEVER!

if anyone came to your hse on your lazy days, what would you do?
- go to the BASKETBALL COURT! ;D

who last grabbed your ass?
- uhh. tht was a LONG time ago. evonia!! :D

how do most people spell your name?
- jess! (: haha

what do you do when you're sad?
- CRY. CRY. CRY )':

have you ever stayed online a long time waiting for someone?
- yeah. ALL THE TIMEE (:

have you ever kicked a vending machine?
- YEAH! i was around 7/8. i saw people doing it on tv, so i followed =.="

who or what sleeps with you?
- my phone :D it snores under my pillow XD

is anyone on your bad side now?
- YESS YESS YESS! UGHH. i'm tired of sucking up!

what are you doing tomorrow?
- going for tuition? teehee, looking forward to it!! :)

do you know anyone with the same name as you?
- no one! my name is SPECIAL ;P

what irritates you the most on the internet?
- seriously, idk. but it must be those pop-up thingies. -____-

could you live without a computer?
- i dont think so, NO! =.="

at what age did you find out that santa wasn't real?
- thisyear! haha. i can't rmbr. >.<

what's the first thing you do when you go online?
- sign in to messenger! (:

favourite name for a girl?
- jaslyn! teehee (:

i'm tagging :-
* lynn
* jnnh
* evonia
* leeking
* kamal

there! i'm helping you guys kill boredom! (:

i miss school,
i miss 2 omg and all the noise we make,
miss all the laughter,
all the gay stuff that we do ):

dear Lynn,

lynn. i tried.
i can't.
blame me, i know i'm GUTless :D

i just heard the MOST insulting thing ever. actually, heck. it was yesterday. but who cares?

when i visited my dad yesterday, at the hospital >.<
my uncle was there. i haven't seen him in a REALLY REALLY LONG TIME.
his 1st words to me were " jaslyn, you look like you haven't gotten taller laaa "
i was dumbfounded.
i mean, WTH? OMG I NEED TO GET TALLER.
and it so doesn't help when some oh-so-kind people make fun of my height. not only mentioning it, but trying to show it. come on laa. i know i know i know I'M SHORT.

FINEEEEE. GREAT. just GREAT.
i've made my resolution.
# PLAY BASKETBALL AND GET TALLER!!!

hopefully, i will. XD

i was bored =.="
and my dad was SLEEPING. *sigh*

i wanna go for basketball again ;D
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala (:

drip drop

OMG YAY!
yesterday was GREATTTTTT! ;D
lynn, jnnh, and me went to the basketball court. and and lynn scored 4 goals kot.
and she went -
" wai kit is my lucky star " :)

haha. i scored 2, only one!! no fair. but there were so many close-calls! haha. kml is my lucky star :D he was yelling about me missing the goal and craps. HAH. IN YOUR FACE KAMAL! I SCORED ! XP

1/2 hour after we were there, it drizzled. and lynn and jnnh wanted to go back to my hse. but i stayed, so they HAD TO STAY ;D they actually called kml and jab to be our ' CHAPERONES ' =.=" this was getting gay. and lynn was like OMGJUAN. XP

i nearly got killed by jannah. with MY UMBRELLA, WHICH SHE RUINED. >.<

i love you guys :)
come again on monday??? :D

suddenly i just have this burning hatred for -
FAIRYTALES.
yes, you got it right. FAIRYTALES.
and you didn't read it wrong either. i'm serious.

ohh those so awesome fairytales. all of them with HAPPY ENDINGS?
i mean, like please laa. face it. that's just not reality.
face the world. ughh. the real world, not the fantasies.
where there are no HAPPY ENDINGS unless you really work and slave for them.

cinderella
all she had to do was to wish
sleeping beauty
she shall only awaken by 'true loves first kiss'
beauty and the beast
the beast turned back into a handsome prince in the end, didn't he?
every story with a happy ending. 'AND THE LIVED HAPPILY EVER AFTER. THE END' tada! (':
i mean, COME ON LAA! even shrek, kay? SHREK. lived happily ever after. YAY! NOT. =.=

OHH WHAT CRAP. if this were real life, how great life would be.
we wouldn't have to spend hours hoping and praying for something.
just wish and *POOF* there you go! everything's alright again! =.=
i still remember when i was younger, i read all those storybooks. and i believed every word. HOW NAIVE >.<
my parents should have just given me some other books about real life. instead of those make-believe worlds, which never really seem to help.

ughh. reality is harsh. fantasies are a dream.
i think i wanna sleep. and dream. ><

my dears,

sorry but i won't be able to msg that much anymore. ):
my phone bill is shooting wayyyy up.
if there's anything, CALL! kay? CALL!
don't msg. cause i won't reply. kay?
I WON'T REPLY!

missing you guys,
jas

friend files : wai kit (:

name : SIN WAI KIT
age : 14
birthday : 29 apr
school : currently, SMKBJ. :/
favourite sayings : what you talking?!
favourite gay : ZEEEEE! f
avourite smiley : XD
favourite prs : jnnh !! f
avourite pengawas : jas jas jas! yayy! f
avourite food : choki chokis :D
favourite blog : mine!
favourite song : when you look me in the eyes! by jonas brothers!!
best known for : twisting people's names. ughh =.=
LOVES? : joeeeeeee! ;P and and teasing me about my height! i know lahh i'm short!
favourite picture??

(:

ughh. got tagged by yiling. so, lets start.

1. do you think you're hot?
not at all. =.="

2. upload your favourite picture of you!
3. why do you like that picture?
i don't know. that's the best picture i have, i guess (:

4. when was the last time you at pizza?
can't remember. ohyeah! 2nd november ><

5. the last song you listened to?
uhh. goodnight and goodbye by JOE!

6. what are you doing now besides this?
chatting with janoh :D

7. what name would you prefer besides yours?
none. i love my name, cause its special XD

People to tag :
1. lynn
2. jnnh
3. evo
4. lee
5. nafis!

8. who's number one?
forever my bestest friend ;)

9. number 3 is having a relationship with?
ME ME ME! XP

10. say something about number 5?
he's gay :D

11. how about number 4?
ohh. LEE SO CUTEEEEE :)

12. who is number 2?
JANNAH TAMBI! MY DARLING JNNH!

WAI KIT IS SUPER AWESOME!
JESS YOUR BF IS SO AWESOME!

i know i know! he is awesome, kann? :D

jabb's story. ;P

jabb says:
jas
jabb says:
u have a 33.33% chance that u will commit suicide
jabb says:
so u better do something funn bfore i see your face on the frontpage of NST saying


Ling Hui Shan Jaslyn,14,fell off a building . wheres DATIN?? the police believed she was pushed by a big,big stomach ,a pregnant one so.. wheres DATIN?? further investigation shows.. a student named YOng EE Lynn,14 and NIk Hazreen Nik Fauzi,14 was smacking the door to everyone tht passedthrought the class 2omega meanwhle..... victim ,jaslyn was luring people to walk infront of their class and standin at the kakilima tgkat 3 . while they were doing tht.. datin and zana was running around the shool chase by flying sperms. . so datin and zana was running around to run away from them. so.. lynn and nik smacked the door and hit datin and her stomach hit jaslyn. and she slipped off and fell. meanwhileee the students was doing lompat tinggi downstairs and it was wai kit's turn to jump. he jumped.. but he didn't make it. so he fell flat on the tilam. a short while after that, jaslyn fell beside him. HAHA!

the rest, ASK JBBR. =.=" so gay lahh.

faking smiles is what i do best,
cause what's outside is what people see,
they never dig deep and see the rest.

it's the end of the world )':

i'm god's personal joke.
no, i'm not. MY LIFE IS HIS COMEDY ROUTINE! )':
seriously.

why why why must this be happening now?
couldn't it be some other time???!!!!!

)': WHY?!

saturday was AWESOME, kay? AWESOME!! :D
i watched hsm3 with jnnh and lynn. unbelievably, i think its the best among the 3 ones.
kannn jnnh? ;)

firstly, we walked AIMLESSLY around 1U for about. 1 hour, i think. somewhere around 1hour.
jalan jalan cari makan :D
EXACTLY! ahaha. too bad, tgif wasn't open YET. so what laa? its just 3 PEOPLE jer. =.=
in the end, we makan-ed at pizza hut. O.o

people with aneroxia get full by just STARING at the food. i think its working! -.-

after thaat, uhh. letmethink. oh yeah. we walked AIMLESSLY again -.-
then, we watched the movie. the first part was GAY. really really gay.
it all started with a CLOSEUP of zac's face, sweating. LOL. gila gross!
TROOOOOOOY!
at the ending, there was a song titled ' HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL '
i mean, wth lah? promoting the movie izit? -________-

after that, we walked aimlessly AGAIN, went shopping, and went to MPH! yayy!
some of the CRAZILY RANDOM BOOKS! :

and then, i found this book - EVERYTHING MEN KNOW ABOUT WOMEN.
and its so RETARDED, cause its COMPLETELY EMPTY. and this isn't a printing error. finally, PROOF! -MEN KNOW NOTHING ABOUT WOMEN! HAHA. ;P

guess what we saw?
ciri2 autisme:

haha. sounds like jnnh, kan? :P

love that day (:

"Jess also got hit, even though I warned her like crazy. Her cut was worse, her blood dripped everywhere."

i know laa tamb. ITS PAINNN!! PAINNN!!! PAINNN!! );

ughhh. today was one of the most boring days of my life.
ughh. scratch that. today was THE MOST BORING DAY OF MY LIFE, so far. =.=
nothing to do -_______-

except for jbr's open hse. and that time when we played 'truth or dare' :D
haha. hariz is GROSSS!! ewwww. he opened hzq's ZIP!! eww eww eww.
wht else ehh? pics of the open hse:

amir's hand shakes laaa -.- its blurrr !! =___=

watching tv? :D

GROUP HUGGG :D GAYYY!

ahha, too baddd laaa. lynn, jnnh and i went back early. we missed all the funnn ):

*sob*
i can't help it. whenever i think abt the following year,
i feel like i wanna cryyyyy )':
ughhh. jnnh's going awayyyy. lynn's going awayyyy. and ebourne too?! NOOOO!! ):
dont dont dont leaveee mee heree :/
ughhh. )':
*whine*

ow ow ow.
its painnnn.
ow ow ow. painpainpain. and its bleeding again. the blood is flowing.
ughh. jnnh cut her finger today. i also did -.-
how? by carving WOOD! wth? carve carve carve. suddenly the carving thingy when sliding to my finger.
TWICE. PAINNNNN!! there's blood all over. painnn :/
ow ow owwwwww.

u see u see? the scar?? ow ow ow. ow ow ow. )':

to my dearest jnnh,
i don't want you to leave!!
i can't imagine life without you, kay?
it'll be so different when you go.
no one to make me laugh when i feel down.
no one to share ALL MY FEELINGS with :/
i don't want you to go!!!
i want you to stay HEREEE !! )':

crawling back to you ):

everybody knows that i was such a fool to ever let go of you
baby i was wrong
yeah i know i said we'd be better of alone
it was time that we moved on
i know i broke your heart, i didn't mean to break your heart
but baby here i am

banging on your front door
my pride spilled on the floor
my hands and knees are bruised and i'm crawling back to you
begging for a second chance
are you gonna let me in?
i was running from the truth and i'm crawling back to you

i know you're in there and you can make me wait
but i'm not gonna wait
it's the least i can do, just to tell you face to face
i was lying to myself, now i'm dying in this hell
girl i know you're mad, i can't blame you for being mad
but baby here i am

banging on your front door
my pride spilled on the floor
my hands and knees are bruised and i'm crawling back to you
begging for a second chance
are you gonna let me in?
i was running from the truth and now i'm crawling back to you

if you could see these tears i'm crying
touch these hands that can't stop shaking
hear my heart that's barely beating
you'll see a different man

but baby here i am
banging on your front door
my pride spilled on the floor
my hands and knees are bruised and i'm crawling back to you
begging for a second chance
are you gonna let me in?
i was running from the truth and now i'm crawling back to you..

holding on to the memories

if i don't have you to hold on to,
i can't go on this world alone,
baby its true.
if you said goodbye,
girl, i would die,
i'm a star with no light, a day with no night,
if i don't have you

jnnh just reminded me.
how times were long ago, well , not THATT long ago.
listening to backstreet boys and westlife just make me feel YOUNGER again.
the reminder of the past. full of the memories. :)

joe is so cuteee :D
i love joe
i love joe
i love joe (:
*sigh*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , JIMMY LEE JIA ZHE !!
although ur birthday isn't till the 12th. oops :)
but still, we celebrated it today , SABO LEE !! :D
eggs , flour, 100plus, water , yayy !!
sorry i didn't get u anything though :/
but once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
i love lee (;

kml finally got his 1st taste of FLOUR , yayy :D
i just remembered again, the next person who's going to get sabo-ed. -___-

making history

*DRUMROLL*
for the 1st time in the entire history of 2 Omega,
some really special people have managed to survive ' A DAY WITHOUT CHESS ' :)
ahaha. go kamal and nafis !!
looks like i won't have to tell lee and andrew not to bring their chess ;D

so bored. everyone is off holiday-ing.
and i'm stuck at home. i miss everyoneee :|
UNFAIRR !!

I GOT MY PHONE BACK !! YAYY ;D

gardenias :D

hmm. my favourite flowers??
shld be gardenias (:
ahha ;D



they're just so pretty :D ritee??
and they signify secret love/ joy/ good luck.
they're mostly found in white
SO CANTIKKKK *sigh* (;

i just hateeee my family ritee now. sheesh
guess what?! my phone got RAMPAS-ED. by who? my dad. wth?!
that's SO FRIGGING EVIL. i loveee my phoneeee :/
why laa?! wthwthwth?! fckityfckityfck.!
I WANT MY PHONEE BACK !! :'(

awwwww, i miss youuu :/

started missing you already. sheesh -_______-
i can't believe myself =.=

guys, have a happy hari raya :D
anddd, uhh, HAPPYHOLIDAYS??!!! :)

MOST STRESSING WEEK EVER !! OMGOMG !!

i wanna go somewhere far away,
forget everything i've been through.

i dont know whats going on,
i dont know what to do anymore,
i just want to leave,
and never come back.
never to walk this road again,
the path created out of tears,
out of all the scars and torn pieces,
turning away from it.
-jas-

sometimes i feel like i'm all alone in this world. with no one else who even cares.
maybe i'm a failure. maybe i really am.
i wonder what they think of me.
who am i in their eyes?

no one knows the way i really am,
no one knows the way i feel,
NO ONE KNOWS.
its all hidden behind the smiles,
behind the laughter,
no one actually realises that those things,
are just shadowing the pain.


- " To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing " -

- " The love that lasts the longest is the love that is never returned "
- William Somerset Maugham -

lynnn !! i survived !! i didn't die, hah !! i spent the WHOLE DAY without chess at all !!
hah. unlike some people >.<

10 minutes without chess,
and thennn CHESS CHESS CHESS :D
haha.

so the verdict : I AM NOT CHESS-OBSESSED !! YAYY !! :)

ahha. lynn dared me to NOT play chess for one day. fineeee :D its not like i'll die or something. lynn !! i'm not kamal or nafis or haziq okaaay?? i won't die !! if the three of them just don't play chess for one day, they MIGHT diee :P haha. not mee !! i'm not a chess geek laaa >.<

SO, I ACCEPT UR DAREEE !! HAHA :)

MY BELOVEDs :P

OHHKAY. I'M DOING THIS CAUSE LYNN ASKED ME TO UPDATE, AND MAKE FRIEND FILES . SO HERE I AM. AHAH :)

1. LYNN :D


ahha. here goes. :D this is my best bestie EVER, lynno . i've known lynn since uhh, 5 years?? WOWEEE. i still remember the times, where we played badminton with each other. the times when we made REALLY LOOOOONGGG NECKLACES out of the flowers that we picked from our houses. we playes cops and robbers, chasing each other round and round and round and round. spraying each other with water, from the water guns, the hoses. OMG WET !! GAHHH !! :D i still remember those fond times. *sigh* riteee lynn??

she is one special gal who is hard to forget. she always makes me smile whenever i'm down ( which is most of the time ) and she knows whenever i have problems. although its badddd sometimes =.=

lynn, i loveeee youuu . lynn likes lin dan like mee ! and she loves her MANCHESTER UNITED. MANCHESTER UNITED SUCKS LAA, LYNNO !! and liverpool rocksss the worlddd !! yayy !! she also thinks that rooney is cute, OMG. no wayyyy !! rooney tak cutee punn !! ahha :D

i'm so lazy to write more laa, lynn !! i guess that's all . lastly, LYNN, I LOVEEE YOUUU SOOO MUCCCH. you know that ritee? (:


2. EVONIA / BABOON?? XD


okaaay. evonia is another very very very IMPORTANT person in my lifeee :) she always makes me laugh whenever i feel bad/ emo. you know how? by arguing with mr. king kong , duuh !! although i've only known her for less than a year, she knows me sooooo well :D its so tambifying. hah.

evonia loveesss ac milan's kaka. hmmph. tak hot punnn !! :P my evonia is my special baboon. SHE LOVES NAFIS !! and she tends to get JEALOUS :D of meee !! yayy !! haha.

baboon is a prefect too, like meee !! ahha. at least i have a temannnn (:
I LOVEEE MY BABOON!!


3. JANOHHHH (:



there's only oneee word to describe janoh - GAYYYY :D janoh is always gayyy . she's like the gayest person everrrr :) sorry, darlinggg :P janoh understands mee, and she even created another name for mee - jess-leen . aww, how touchinggg. janoh is NOT A FOOTBALL FAN, unlike mee .. i've only known janoh less than a yearrr . i remember when i started being friends with lynn, i thought she was mad at mee >.< gosssh =".=" style="font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;">what else?? hmm. janoh loves her taufik and sms. but kesian, jess is anti-sms. he's not cute punn !! hhmphh. however, i still loveee youuu and your gayness. oh yeah janoh has achieved OPTIMUM GAYNESS !! high 5 !!
remember what we saw kml do just now? he was raping ah keong OMGOMG!!

4. HAZIQ, NAFIS AND KAMAL.


uhhhh. starting with haziq, maybe? haziq is just plain GAY. and i mean REALLY REALLY GAY. TRUST MEE !! beware of haziq !! he just loves scaring mee, don't you , haziq?? and he loves chess. i mean , all those 3 guys up there just LOVE CHESS TOO MUCH. THEY'LL DIE WITHOUT CHESS FOR ONE DAY !! SERIOUSLY. sheesh =.= even i'm not THAAAT crazy !!!! haziq is like a brother to mee. he always helps me out :D thank you, haziq !!

and then , there's nafis. mr. lelaki sejati, not like KAMAL !! hmmph. nafis is also a chess freakkk !! i think i remember, the 1st sentence he ever said to me was " JAS, JUM MAIN CHESS ! " hah. both nafis and kml hv a deal with mee , WHOEVER CURSES GETS SLAPPED !! ahha, so much FUNN !! nafis understands mee !! I LOVEEE MY/ EVONIA'S NAFIS (: haha.

lastly, kml. ohh the camel. i've only known him for a short while.. kml is just, the best !! he knows how to cheer me up. and he's emo , just like mee !! although he's always emo =.= kml understands mee !! riteee? he thought me not to be emo. simply, KAMAL ROCKS.
although his flu sucks. his virus just spreads everywhereee !! and always, i'll be the one who catches his cold. and thenn, you know laaah :) but still, kml is MINEEE , MINEEE , MINEEE !! I WOVEEEE YOUUU ;D

5. LEE KING KONG !!


leeking :) one of the most special people in my lifeee :D hah. he is just too blurr for words. seriously. and he is a PENAKUT !! ahha. really really !! HE LOVES MANCHESTER UNITED, like lynn. sheesh. always arguing with mee =.= but mostly, he lovesss arguing with evonia !! one day without arguing is like the end of the world . :P leeking is gayyy , i mean , all the guys in 2 omg are.!! he always knows when i'm pissed. haha, and sometimes he tries to help , although he doesn't succeed. leeking, thnk u for being who u are. i love you? ( maybe :D )


OMGOMG THIS IS JUST LOADS OF TYPING. =.= AND I'M SO LAZY. to be continued.... :)

pics?

here are some pics i caught during tuition :)

- teck shen -

- wai kit -

yousee? hah. i DARED to put the pics . hhmph. :P

MU FANS??

to all the MU fans out there -- MU SUCKSSSS !! :P
hah. LIVERPOOL WON!! MU LOST !! HAHAHAHA.

SUCKISH RITEEE? :D
lol. O.o

words unspoken in between

i miss you.
i miss everything about you.
i miss talking to you,
i miss sitting with you
while you help me out with all my problems.
i miss you giving me advice,
i miss you helping me out.
no one understood me like you did,
and i guess no one ever will.

there are just too many things,
too many secrets,
too many words left unsaid,
too many things kept in the dark,
too many things i hide.

because of you,
i don't dare to hope,
cause i'm afraid i'll be disappointed,
as i always have,
because of you,
i lost everything.
what more could i lose?
i'm drowning in my problems,
its just too hard to face them anymore,
everything that i do,
just seems to make it worse.

it just feels like,
everyone i meet will stab me in the back,
its just the matter of time.
i've lost trust,
lost hope,
maybe i've just lost everything.

-jas-

i dont know why, but my life is getting worse and worse every single day.
its like i'm just rolling downhill and i don't know how to go up again. *sigh*

dear kamal suria,
i've caught your flu AGAIN!!
omggggggg ];
i feel like dyinggg =.=

KAMALLL!!!!!! >.<

i dont post that much anymore, i noticed.
what's there to post?
my life is just getting more miserable and miserable every single day!! =.=''
GOSSSSSH :/
i need my lynnay, baboon , jnnh , and KAMAL !! and maybe, leeking? :D
where are u guys when i need youuuu? (:

YILING !!

DOING THIS JUST FOR THE SAKE OF YILING :D
OMGGGGG.
GO SEE YILING'S BLOG TO FIND OUT THE QUESTIONS :)
THIS ARE JUST THE ANSWERS :P

1. jas, jess-leen, jasleen? idontknowwwww?

2. nthing. i go to bed when i'm just DEAD TIRED. POOF. *falls asleep*

3. .......??

4. the smell of chocolateeee :D yayyy

5. video games? not my type laa :P

6. CHOCOLATEEE !! DUHH.

7. i trust everyone, especially people that i know. i know its a badddd trait, eventually i get disappointed. :/

8. NOT AGAINNNNN.??

9. some stuff which i would rather keep PRIVATE :) i know i've been emo recently :D

10. i dont know. hopefully? (;

11. hanging out with ALL MY BUDDIES 24/7

12. myspace, all ur blogs :D

13. awwww, LONG LIST. LAZZZZYYY

( SKIPPING NO. 14 :P )

15. camp rock's gotta find you ? yayy :D

16. jeans and t-shirt.

17. RECEIVE RECEIVE !! YAYY !!

18. OHH GRAB IT AND RUNNN !! DUUH :)

19. UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

20. nothing? :P

TO YILING :
sorry if this is disappointing. i know i have a MISERABLE LIFE. YAYY :D haha.

just 3 words - I AM PISSED.

SERIOUSLY. EVERYTHING JUST PISSES ME OFF. DONT ASK WHY.!

LEEKING :)

DEDICATION FOR LEEKING :)

i want you sooo much,
you make my mouth water ,
my saliva dripping,
DRIP DROP,
my tummy is growling, ROARRRRR :)
as i stareeeee at youuuu
i want you, i need you,
can't anyone feel my pain?
hoping that you'll come to me,

ohh DONUTS :)

haha. XD

where there is love, there's hate,
where there is joy, there's sadness,
where there is light, there's darkness,
where there is comfort, there's pain ..

for every good thing there is,
the next is two times worse :/

but kamal's right :)
there's no point whining over this stuff.
*sigh*

i need to stop being emo :/
i wonder if its THAAAT easy >.<

thank you to kamal :)
i wanna stop being emo !!

yayyyyy !!
=.=

dont ask me why i'm being emotional,
you won't get your answer. (:

i trusted you,
i didn't know better,
i was too naive,
i needed you :/

why did you have to lie?
why did you turn away?
its always just-
why, oh why?

questions left unanswered,
mysteries left unsolved,
i have nothing more to say. :/
*sigh*

life is so pointless, so meaningless,
my world is useless,
i dream of death,
i wonder how it would be?

i don't wanna care anymore,
i don't wanna think,
i don't want to face the world again,
why must everything be so unfair?

everyone seems to turn away from me,
i'm always losing hope,
maybe its just time to leave,
maybe its time for me to go :/

change?

there was only ONE thing i wished for when we changed class , back upstairs - hopefully, no one would start to change .. when i went to school last morning, i had a really really bad feeling, ( maybe it was an omen? ) that things WOULD change. AND THINGS REALLY DID CHANGE .. i did try to talk to uhh, lets call him B . i tried talking to him, calling his name so many times. and still, no reply. it was as though i wasn't even there, as though i was invisible. he could at least have said SOMETHING, ANYTHING! to me, but he didn't. it was as though, since he had his best friends, why does he need us anymore?? he acted as though nothing was wrong, eventhough i was kinda giving him angry looks the whole day >.< style="font-style: italic;">OVERREACTING AGAIN ) but i'm not !!! he promised me he won't change.!! and he doesn't even care? he usually does, if i say those stuff. the worst thing was when i came home, i really wanted to tell someone that i got the AJK pengawas - AJK REKOD DAN DATA, so i actually typed out a msg, clicked send, and sent it to him. then, i remembered. HE'S NOT TALKING TO MEE ! so , i clicked CANCEL. omg that was SADDENING !! i needed to tell someone !! i wanted to tell someone about it, and the person who would actually say - congratulations, etc. was not talking to me! wth?!HEWASN'TTALKINGTOMEHEWASN'TTALKINGTOME!! *SOB* i was so distresseddddd :/ OMGOMG.

and last night, i had this freaky dream. evo and i were talking abt ' B ' and i think his friend ( anonymous :) ) heard and told him. then he came to us and said - YOU THINK YOU'RE SO IMPORTANT TO ME? NOLAAAH! U GUYS WERE JUST SUBSTITUTES FOR MY BESTFRIENDS ONLY. NOW THAT I HAVE THEM, WHAT FOR DO I NEED YOU?!

OMGOMG. GAHHHHH =.=

but i've learned something. never get ur hopes up TOO HIGH. because people can easily crush them ,and it'll only cause disappointment. so, THINK PASSIVE. at least, thats for mee :/ I HATE MYSELF. ( FULL STOP )

OMGOMG. I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED !!!!
teck shen changed school without even telling meeee !! *sob*
aww, no fairrrr !!

sometimes i think i'm just being too emo, rightttt? =.="

ohh tambiiiii i miss nafis (:
i want his sweeeeets !!!


:D I KNOW I'M A TAMBI !!

and who's A??

part 2 :D

amir :) sorry if i offended you !!

part 1 :D

TAMBI GILEEEEE !! I FORGOT NIKY !!!!! OMGOMG I NAK BUAT BARUUU :)

THROUGH TIME

i'm on my knees, begging,
begging - please come home,
such a long time has past,
and i'm left here all alone.
i've missed you,
i've cried for you,
but my tears are all in vain.

i can wish,
to turn back time,
to just forget,
but the scars still remain,
i can wish for them to leave,
but alas- wishes can't come true,
scars are a part of us,
even as time passes by.
they're reminders of our past,
keeping all the pain,
and hiding them deep inside.

oh, how i wish,
things hadn't turned out this way,
i wouldn't have fallen,
i wouldn't have lost this fight,
my last chance of hope,
dashed.
oh, why am i always the fool?

the facts are too clear to ignore,
i've loved you, but i wanted more,
sorry to say,
i guess i give up.

everyone should learn,
to let go,
to finally wake up,
to learn to surrender.
no matter how much i try,
what i wanted ,
has always been and
always will be,
just far out of my reach.

so,
goodbye,
i'll be leaving.

-jas-

what if things never changed? what if they stayed the same? what would have happened then? would things still be the same? would they turn worse? would you had turned your back on me? would you have been true? would you have lied? cheated? would things ever be the same between us? everything might seem the same, but there is some distance between us, didn't you notice? things aren't the same anymore. would i still have lost you? would i have looked for someone new, and lost? if you would turn back time, would you change , or even cancel out that moment? or would you savor it?

tambisssss !!
tambi-fier for sale,
while stocks last. :D

first come, first serve.

i think i nak beli oneeee laaa :D

GOODBYE.

- RANDOMNESS -

JANNAHHHHH
EELYNNNNN
LEEEKINGGG
EVOOONIAAA
JASSSSLYN. haha, myself?

gosssssh :D

tambis, i'm boreddddd =.="

AND HUNGRY :D
i nak sweeeeets?

the world is all wrong. i'm hungry, but i dont wanna eat. i'm tired , but i can't rest. all i wanna do is puke. after all this time , where everything has begun to change, i'm still stuck in reverse while others are moving forward. i do the same things everyday, its become a routine. i'm bored, and i'm sick of life. i wish things were different and i wish i hadn't met you. you make my life miserable, and i guess thats why i can't move on. i wish i were someone else, someone who doesn't have such a sensitive personality. i just keep turning back, keep looking over my shoulder, to check back on things that i have done. i keep being this way, and why? for what? cause i'm stuck with you. i can't move on. i'm missing out on everything, i'm missing out on things i wanna do, things that i should do. i'm missing you too much, but you aren't the same anymore. you've changed. everyone's changed. so why can't i just learn from my mistakes??

TAMBI!!

hello, tambis :)
its a longg time since i blogged,
well, not THAT long anyway.
gossssh, finally we finished our filming,
and its gile funny kay?

jas - jml's mum? gosssh
lynn - matchmaker
evo - jml's sis
jnnh - jml's wife :) yayyy
leeking - lan
nafis - jml , haha :D
amir - filming-er? director, kotttt. (:

and i've been really emo this week, pissed.
something different comes up every single frigging day just to make me pissed.
people make me pissed. things make me pissed. everything makes me pissed.

- life is unfair, death is unfair, everything is never fair - jess :D

i'm really really really pissed, but i dont think anyone really understands why,
and i'm hungry, really hungry.
thanks to everyone who offered me sweets just now :D
yes, you, nafis . thank you , kay? :)
tambi. even dash is emo. and the both of us shld get an award for the 1st people in the world to play table-chess,which he won. IT HURTS MY EYES. DUHHHHH.

officially, i'm a prefect :D
and i'm gonna get my name all over the toilets, ( hopefully not )
lee is already starting on his " i hate all prefects" rampage. gossssh.

lynn, evo , and leeking,
the doggie, baboon, and king kong,
pleaseeeee, ibegyou. STOP ARGUING, JUST FOR ONE DAYYYY !! PLEASEEE? :D haha.
even cikgu din asks u to - CEPAT PERGI KAHWIN LAAAA !!

i guess thats all. i'm so lazy,
and did i mention? i lost the spelling thingy. 5th place.
JANNAH, CONGRATS!!

ehh, people.
buy a tambi-fier, it does absolutely nothing - but it smells nice.

a quote from an unfortunate buyer, miss nadia -
I BOUGHT THIS TAMBI-FIER FOR SO MUCH MONEY , AND IT DOESN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING?
TAMBI !!!!

let me think, what else did i do this week?
uhh, there was that time which lynn brought her eyeliner to school, and evonia made jnnh her , uhh, tester?
and GODDDDD, U WONT BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED.
JANNAH, YOU LOOKED LIKE A, GHOST ! SERIOUSLY.
and pastu jabb tried on mee pulak :D
but it turned out okay, yayyy !! ahha :)
thank you, jabb (:

lazy to typeeee laaaa :/
nafisssss !!! u tambi !!!!
GOODBYE, TAMBIS. :D

school is back. =.=

hah.
tmrw is back-to-school AGAIN.
FINALLY. after the mosttt boring week of my lifeeee :/
except for a few days ,
gahhh. finally back to school.
i wanna meeet everyoneeeee :)
i wanna play chess with nafis !! :D
talk crap and be crazy, with evo, lynn, and jnnh (;
do anything i want !!
YAYYY !! :D

would you...??

i had a dream,
when i woke up, i saw something , and i thought of you.
would you ever do that to me? would you ever break those little pieces of my heart, which already have been broken? would you turn away from me, never to face me again? would you give me your last word, never to speak to me again? would you smile one last time? would you cry for the first time? would you leave me in the dark, never knowing? would you tell, or would you not? would you look at me with disgust, or would you be filled with pity? would you hate me, when all this ends? would you ever hold my hand again? would you ever think of me again? and when you did, would you miss me? would you miss my presence, even when you would have found someone new? would you be there when i need to be comforted? would you still try to understand? would you forget me, or remember me still? would you just leave, walking out of my life, one day? would you?, i wonder...