YESTERDAY
1.after recess yesterday, everyone rushed to the physics lab. O_O he was LATE. very, very late :O and we were talking about 'later each person cane him once' XD haha. turns out, he DIDN'T COME. when someone announced it, the whole class was like, YES! haha! ;D


2. during siv and add math, ashman, hari, lynn, elora and i, practiced our eng oral. as usual, we'll be doing DRAMA ;D heee. this time, it's about a murder investigation. i'm acting as hari's bussiness partner, hari's the victim AND ashman's assistant, ashman's the detective, lynn if hari's girlfriend, and elora's the owner of a gun shop and also lynn's maid. 
interesting, no? :)


3. permainan dalaman yesterday was quite boring :/ i didn't do anything, mostly watched the guys play. and history was made: andrew actually made TRIPLE PAWNS. :O WOWWWW.


TODAY
1. football! this time, the teams were: ashman, hari and andrew in a team, and jannah, me, hazwan and sehran in the other. the end result? 2-2. again. hazwan and i scored for our team :) I SCORED A GOAL, PAST ANDREW AND HARI! ;D YAY! ;D there were loads of accidents -.- pft. eg: jannah and ashman terlanggar and fell, andrew tripped over jannah, jannah kicking the ball into sehran's uh, dick? and me running into some VERY SKINNY PEOPLE. ashman, sehran, hazwan. skinny people have SHARP BONES. when you run into them, you get HURT. very hurt. owwww.
plus, lovegrass. lots and lots of lovegrass. gr.


2. english oral. our drama was a success :) apart from some parts, like the part where i LAUGHED when hari died, the whole thing was awesome :) zee got a huge shock when ashman suddenly slammed the table :O i wish i could've seen. haha, and guess what the name of the gun was? DEFIANCE 3. AWESUM XD haha! one thing i learned, sweat + air cond = NO GOOD. we were sweating terribly, and we went into the library for the oral thingy. and we were dammit cold. shman was shaking terribly and his teeth were chattering -_- freezing :/
the worst part is, I DIDN'T GET TO RECORD THE PART WHERE HARI AND I WERE ACTING MENGADA :( hari was blocking the camera :( it was funny, and i didn't get it :( it was the part where hari and i say 'PERFECT!' together, and we go 'OOOOH SSSSST' like in hannah montana :)
AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW :(


p.s. someone's going for a chess tournament tmrw. i wish i could join :(

the moon, it's pretty tonight :)
it's shining so brightly :O


i wonder. if i make a wish tonight, will it come true? ;/

can i please take back what i said?
can i please take back what i did?
can i please turn back the time?
can things go back to the way they were?


and life says, 'no, no, no and no.'

1. mikhail came late today, and his reason? "hari yang indah" :O haha XD

2. ghost stories

3. lynn, hari and evo asking the EXACT same question [jaaaaaaaaaaaaaas, you don't like ...... do you?] wth -.-

4. prefects meeting. hazwan suggested me for ajk for games, for the sake of it. i suggested him for ajk persembahan, and hari for ajk sponsor. and all of us got it. evo's ajk hotel, with kamal.

5. hari and shman kept talking about me being obsessed with chess. totally lupa daratan (is that correct?) who's more obsessed huh? :P

6. letting out everything that i've bottled up for the past year.

as i'm writing this, i'm trying to remember those times that i was happy today. the times that i laughed, that i enjoyed myself. somehow those moments seem so far now. it's just been a short while, and my emotions just took a u-turn, and i'm stuck in this sadness again. i just wanna regain that feeling of being happy again. please? i don't wanna feel depressed again. this happens so often. it comes and then it goes, and it leaves me being confused in its midst. people don't realise it, cause i always cover it up. i'm thinking back of those happier moments today, and how am i reacting? a bitter laugh. i feel so bitter nowadays, it doesn't seem like me. i was happy. i was someone who laughed all the time, who could always see the better side of things. where did that part of me go? between now and then, i've changed. little by little. these emotions, i've hidden deep inside me, locked them away. the regret. the pain. the lost. mostly, the regret. the 'i shouldn't have, i shouldn't have' 'it was a mistake.' and now, they're resurfacing. i never should've brought it up, never should've mentioned it. it just brings back the memories. 

i think i'm gonna go give myself a good cry now.

shman, i am NOT obsessed. NOT OBSESSED. not yet, anyway. i'm just ON THE VERGE XD
and i don't think i can go :(


and whut 'keep it up', huh? :P

haziq, 

us here, we miss you too. loads. we miss all the times we've shared with you. everything we've been through together. but you're in a better place now, so come on, head up, haziq! :) be strong! you know we're always right beside you, every step of the way :)

was talking to hazwan just now. he kinda admitted that yes, he did get me into chess. i told him that i wanted to join the chess tournament next saturday, and he said something like 'i didn't know our influence was so strong!' which means, he ADMITS that he DID get me into chess! i mentioned it to him, and he was like 'ahha but it's a draw already' *laughing* -.-' 
still. this shows that i could've won! i was just TOO NICE ;D and hazwan was just too lucky -.-


gr. i can't install the chessmaster cd on my pc :( GAH :(

seriously, the pidm thingy REALLY makes me appreciate cash. it's like, every time i've gotta pay for something, i go 'CRAP! THERE GOES MY CASH!' :(


currently: RM222,194.00

results for the argument of jas vs hazwan:
a draw. :D


this was serious funny. hazwan's keyboard wasn't working. so he couldn't type 'I WIN' XD couldn't type spaces, and couldn't type Ns :D haha. i won, but i offered him a draw, cause it was quite luck-ish the way i won XD
so, it ends here. a draw :D
hee (:

today morning, hari, hazwan evo and i helped tch to take down the curtains from 1 beta, so hari and i managed to skip chem, and evo and hazwan managed to skip physics :D by the time we were done, there was only 20 minutes left, so evo played chess against hari, and i played against hazwan. and here's the shocking thing: HARI LOST TO EVO. AND, I WON AGAINST HAZWAN! ;D shockingggggg. hazwan lost a FREE bishop and in evo and hari's game, hari blundered his queen :O actually, the game between hazwan and i didn't get to finish up our game, but hazwan ADMITTED that he was losing. he's denying it now, but dear hazwan, you DID admit. hee ;)


after that, football :) evo, hazwan, sehran, zafri and me were in a team, and hari, ashman, jannah and andrew were in the other. and, our team lost. 4-1. lol. ashman scored a hat-trick :O and haha, i realised something. guys don't dare to snatch the ball from girls, no matter how easy it might be XD there was a time where andrew could've taken the ball from me so easily, but he backed off XD haha :)


prefects meeting at 3. i hate datin, that's all i have to say.


overall, today was quite fun :) 


ps: hari was talking to BIRDS. 'OI TALK LAH' XD

YESTERDAY.
talking about neopets and pokemons and OTHER STUFFS with lynn, ashman, hari, and kuok fung.
kuok fung told us that defiance once named himself LAURENCE, and mdm ho said that he has an identity crisis.
rehearsal for hari anugerah cemerlang. chess-ed.
argued with hazwan. :D
(it was a HUGGGGGGEE argument okay? -.- it went on and on and on, from the dewan to the class and all the way when we were walking out of school. oh and it was LOUDDDDDD. there was loads of shouting, NO! I WON! YOU LOST! and ADMIT IT ALREADY, YOU LOST. COME ON LAH -.-' etc etc LAWL) -.-


TODAY
chemistry. WHAT THE CRAP DOES FIRDAYU HAVE AGAINST ME?!
physics. got rotan-ed cause we were late. ughh.
hosting thingy.


permainan dalaman- hazwan, sehran and andrew bought DOMINOS :O haha. i DIPAKSA oleh everyone to eat a piece -.-' siao. played against shman, mior, his friend, and sehran. OBVIOUSLY, i lost to ashman. what i didn't expect was to lose so terribly. i think most of the game went on with me repeating deep down, OW. OW OW OW. lesson learned: NEVER EVER play with ashman ever again. not until i'm ready. which will be a LONG LONG LONG LONG LONG time from now. it really pissed me off that i lost so terribly -.- gr. i hereby promise to never play with ashman ever again. and shman, stop saying that i bully people. you bullied me. heh :P
won against mior. won against his friend, TWICE (: won against sehran :D WEEEEEEEEEEE! :)
*tergila-gila happy*
then, we played TRIPLE CHESS. first time :O the two people on the side pass their taken? pieces to the middle person, and middle person passes their again, taken? pieces to either side of the table. their choice. it was beta vs epsilon, which means, hari, ashman and me vs sehran, hazwan and andrew. i can't remember the final result, cause the main thing i remember is loads of yellings of 'PIECES, I NEED PIECES!' haha XD


plus, the argument/ debate between me and hazwan isn't over yet. stay tuned. and dear hazwan, YOU LOST. GIVE UPPP! ;D

stuck in this situation and i'm not happy with it. it's getting better now, but there's still a long way to go.


thanks to lynn, jannah and evo. because of them, i feel a slight bit of this being carried off my shoulders. laughing helps, it really helps. thank god we always laugh the crap outta ourselves :)

i wish i could take back everything i said and did. i wish this never happened. i wish things would go back to normal. 


i wish i wasn't stuck in this situation.

O________O

wow, shman. wowwwwwww O.o

from 'LOW JUN JIAN, GRRRRR.' to this XD

plus, what happened to the ashman that we knew, huh? 

the noisy, sarcastic one?

:D

hazwan called, cause he was lazy to reply my msgs :D

just heard from him that. uh. he won 3 games, drew 2, and lost 2. which means he has 4/7 points. and hazwan’s really happy cause he isn’t the worst player there -.-‘

Ashman, instead. won 5 games and lost 2, which means 5/7 points. and he has a chance of getting into mssm, but has to play in the playoffs first. hazwan also told me that shman actually beat ONE OF THE strongest attacking players, syakir. one of the BEST ATTACKING PLAYERS. and thus, he is VERY VERY HAPPY. as hazwan said, ‘syakir is probably crying in a corner right now’.

I miss Ashman. and I miss hazwan. seriously I do :/

i hope those two will come back. FAST! 

talked to hazwan. he updated me about everything. their team game actually started today. and they were against gombak team. and they trashed them 4-0! yeah! :D good for them :)

and hazwan thought that it was jason who went to the hospital. when it was actually me. when i told him it was me, he went 'oh so you have h1n1?' -.- typical hazwan. still teasing. talking to hazwan is DEFINITELY tons better than talking to ashman. i can't get a single reaction from him -.-

s

after talking to hazwan, i asked for ashman. somehow i felt as though shman wasn't that happy to hear from me :/ and uh. oh well, actually there's nothing for me to tell. sigh. it's a typical ashman thing. he's happy, but he isn't sure if he wants to go for mssm. sigh.

ah well, then, i asked for hazwan again. hazwan told me that they were watching the under 12 play. and he said 'they're can't keep quiet, they're worse than you" -_________________-

i have nothing to say. said our goodbyes, and i HAVE to try to call them tmrw!

i just watched back my game, jaslynjas94 against that dammit SLICKSTA. and guess whut? i DIDN'T SEE A DAMMIT FREE QUEEN. I COULD'VE TAKEN HIS QUEEN FOR FREE -.- WTH LAH! ;(


agak menyakitkan hati ;(


OKAY WAIT.
i just finished watching it. and WTH WAS I DOING? there were SO MANY FREE PIECES. GR GR GRRRRRRRRRRR. ugh. CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T SEE ;(

basically:
lynn didn't come today, so i spent the whole day with haraye and kuok fung :D

updates (!)
skipped sch, went to sjmc today, to uh, check on my ankle since it's been giving me problems this past week. and yeah, the fractured one. took an xray and guess whut? the results: MY FRACTURE IS FULLY HEALED! i can do ANYTHING i want :D haha! and the problems are caused by nerves, which will wear off. yay! :D


ashman and hazwan are currently in sabak bernam, competing in the chess msss. i kinda miss those two :/


i'm so lazy to go to sch tmrw. and windows live messenger isn't working! :( i can't sign in :( the thingy just keeps going round and round and round and round and it doesn't stop :(
GR. 

are you gonna stay with the one who loves you

or are you going back to the one you love?

someone's gonna cry when they know they've lost you

someone's gonna thank their stars aboveeee

the night before life goes on :)

i'm bored, so:
:D

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS, NO CHEATING!
4. Tag as many friends as you want!
5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.
6. Have Fun

IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
fight for this love - cheryl cole

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
uprising - muse

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
sos - jonas brothers

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?

battlefield - jordin sparks

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
lonely - britney spears

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
dreaming with a broken heart - john mayer

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
broken man - boys like girls

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
barriers - david archuleta

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
mama do - pixie lott

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
home - chris daughtry

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND/s?
tim mcgraw - taylor swift

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?

everything you're not - demi lovato

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
ignorance - paramore

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?

lucky - jason mraz

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
should've said no - taylor swift

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
come back to me - utada

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
love drunk - boys like girls

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?

no promises - shayne ward

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
naturally - selena gomez

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
baby one more time - britney spears

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
nothing in this world - paris hilton

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?

the night before life goes on - carrie underwood


lawl. some are agak accurate :O


i'm tagging:
lynn, jannah, evo, haraye, andrew, shman. this'll help revive SOME of your blogs!

i just woke hari up from his beauty sleep. -.-'
i feel horrid.


hari, it's destiny XD destiny wants me to wake you up :D HAHA! ;D

i practically spent my whole day with haraye, digging stuff from each other and laughing retardedly :D

hm. today?


1. english oral. we did a drama about HAIR. XD totally spontaneous. we only planned it 10 minutes before our presentation. and yet, we did well :D lemme break it down:
- i make fun of lynn's hair XD she sees a commercial (elora) for 'ashman's hair spa' on tv, and tries it out, and shman ruins her hair XD
- i meet lynn after the disaster and make fun of her
- she goes back, watches a commercial about 'hari's hair spa' and goes to try it out, again. hari makes her hair awesome :D
this was supposed to be the end, actually. but after the scene, shman got an idea:
- i meet lynn, and she shows off her hair to me. i ask her where she got her treatment and everything, and she tells me 'ASHMAN'S HAIR SPA'. haha. so i go to ashman's hair spa, and of course, my hair gets ruined. -.-' shman seriously messes up people's hair -.- 
- meet lynn AGAIN. and have HUGE ARGUMENT XD 
haha teacher told us, that shman was trying to say 'THE END' many many many many times, but couldn't. cause lynn and i were still arguing XD


2. i actually brought my chess set for the first time, and ashman, hari, sehran, andrew, and hazwan were all "OMG YOU BROUGHT YOUR CHESS SET?!" siao. CRAZY. 


3. some lucky freak doesn't have to do his peka :( hari and i are suffering cause we have to do it :(

outta my 

outta my

get outta my head

i got my phone back. one one condition, i can't spend more than 50 bucks per month :(
sighhh. or else, my phone'll be confiscated :( ah well.


i'm so tired, and i haven't done my bio peka.
i'm so tired out from sitting on the roads, walking around, bending down and sneaking to see the guys - hazwan/hari/shman/andrew or whichever one of them who was STILL playing, after i was done - play.
i'm having a massive headache too :(
i'm sure i'm gonna be sick tmrw. i sense flu coming. i've been sneezing since just now. GAH :(

chess tournament mssd, day 2

so, day 2.


we went there again, by van. the guys were in another car since today we went by a toyota something. a 7-seater, if i'm not mistaken. FOUR of us were stuck at the back. it was horrible. we couldn't even move a bit -.-' and thenn, out came a police truck. LOL WE GOT POLICE ESCORT XD what i mean is, we actually followed the police truck, right at the back. so, obviously, people had to MOVE OUT OF THE WAY XD haha! awesum :)


my first match of the day (5th round) went well.
i played against this chinese girl, and i won :D she resigned! :D
yay! :)
and LOL. she SERIOUSLY did ask about who teached me. i told her "GUYS UNDER 18 TEAM" XD haha! exactly like what shman and hari told me to say :D LAWL.


6th round
i lost :( boohoo.


7th round.
i WON ;D she brought out her queen to early in the game, so i kept attacking it. and in the end, i think she didn't see kot. i got her queen for free :D ahha, and thus. i won :)


so, altogether, i got 4 1/2 points out of 7 points. :)
hm. analysing my games, i found that i was always attacked first, whether i'm white or black. badddd. and i realised that 10 is my lucky number XD every time i sit at table number 10, i'll win :D


turns out, girls under 18 only had to play 7 matches. so, after the 7th match, ashman was being emo cause he lost to low jun jian, and he didn't wanna go with us to kfc, using the excuse "i'm tired!" we left shman, and after we got out of the school gate, andrew and i felt evil, cause he was sitting ALL ALONE :( so, as hazwan predicted, we went back. actually, we waited at the spot first. andrew and i made a deal, if hazwan and hari reached the end of the street and turned back for us, we would follow. but they didn't, so. we went to shman :/


all 3 of our guys, hari, ashman and hazwan, had to play against low jun jian. hari first, then ashman, then hazwan. UGH I HATE THAT GUY! HE HAS THIS COCKY LOOK WHICH MAKES ME WANNA SLAP HIM -.- plus, he has scary eyes. that time, he was playing against shman, and i was standing outside, past the barriers, watching their game. he looked up, and looked at me. i seriously got the creeps. :( his eyes are so scary :( seriously, if i'm playing against him, i WILL NOT ever look at his eyes. i'll freak out. hari, ashman and hazwan all lost to him :/ in a row. but what to do? he's a better player, i guess. and our guys made blunders. so,.. but it's alright :) 
ahha. i would've loved to see someone defeat him. but i resolved to throwing pebbles at his leg while he was playing against hazwan XD


i'll always remember us crowding outside, past the barriers, watching any of our under 18 guys who haven't finished playing yet. giving sokongans :D
and hazwan, walking past me and giving encouragements. 
this just plainly shouts - TEAM SPIRIT <3


guys under 18 results:

hari - 6 points

hazwan - 6 1/2 points (the 1/2 is from a draw with shman. obviously the draw was planned :D )

ashman - 6 1/2 

andrew - 6 points

for girls under 18:

winnie: 8 points, OBVIOUSLY.

shaza: 5 1/2

amirah: 4 1/2

me: 4 1/2

and thus, winnie got 1st place, shaza got 5th, amirah got 11th and i got 12th!

ahha i'm really happy with my position. my FIRST tournament, and i got 12th out of 59 PEOPLE ;D yesh! :D andrew told me that he got number 20+ during his first tournament. plus, i only started chess-ing about LAST WEEK XD haha! :)


after that, prize-giving. while waiting for the thing to start, i was whining about 'i don't wanna be alone again on the way back' :( and so hazwan answered "but you have SUCH STRONG IMAGINATION". -.-' so i said "yeah, it's especially good for plotting revenges" and haha this was funny:
hazwan: jas IS scary O_O
HAHA XD


during the prize-giving ceremony, we were seriously the noisiest. we were cheering every time someone from our school was mentioned and had to go up the stage, which was quite a lot :D WE DOMINATED, ALRIGHT? :D


for guys under 18, frigging low jun jian got 1st place, hazwan got 3rd and ashman 4th. ashman's a frigg, he kept repeating "i can't believe i lost to HAZWAN", "3rd seeded and bla bla bla" -.-
and our guys under 18 got 2nd place, WOOT! ;D


girls under 15 and girls under 18 dominated as well :D both teams got 1ST PLACE ;D yesss! :D i'm so happy that i managed to contribute something, at least :)
when the guy announced "JOHAN - SMK BUKIT JELUTONG!" i was so estatic. I WANTED TO JUMP UP AND DOWN LIKE A MANIAC XD haha! i wanted to sprint up those steps, eventhough i knew that i didn't really contribute much. i was just so happy :) going up that stage to take the prize, with everyone else, was really really awesomeeee, sighh. i wish i could replay it over and over and over and over again :D


it's all thanks to you guys :)
i mean, those of you who supported me, took the time to show me and teach me, and those of you who were always by my side :)
-guys, you know i mean you :D
those who didn't, blargh. you know who you are. 
:D


oh and LOOK:

my name is THERE! ;D

this was the pairing for girls under 18, round 6 :D

heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :)

i <3 you guys for dragging me into this :D 
ahha :P
this is my happiest win ever! :D

p.s. 10 is my lucky number :D every time i play at table 10, i surely win :O


oh and you guys, WHAT HAPPENED TO 'JAS CONFIRM TOP 10 MSSD?!' or are you guys TOO HAPPY with yourselves that you forgot about that? :P

phone confiscated, cause my bill is over 90 bucks. WTH? HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?!
so, please don't msg, call or anyth. 

hazwan: jas, just drink jas-tea, then you'll be jas fine XD LOL

somehow i feel as though i've got OCD. not any normal OCD, but the one where people are so obsessed with storing up memories. i think i've got that :/
pathetic. GR.


so tired. i think i'm gonna sleep at 9.30 tonight.
WHERE'S HARI ANYWAY?!
supposed to wait for me but then went offline -.-

chess tournament mssd, day 1

i needa draft this out first, when everything is fresh on my mind. i'll post it later :) 

to lynn and jannah, if you read this LATER, i'm sorry for not telling you guys the truth earlier. i wanted to see your reaction, face-to-face :)

on the way there, the guys ABANDONED me. and left me to sit behind, between two people i barely know, irsalina and shaza. that made me even more nervous -.- because of the awkward silence between us, i had TOO much time to think. and as usual, my overactive imagination made me think of "if i lose if i lose if i lose...." crappy. 

the funny thing is, i actually asked hari to slap shman. and he did. and then, i asked andrew. and andrew also did. i asked hazwan as well, and he also did. HAHA XD i actually meant, slap on the shoulder. but they actually slapped ashman's face XD haha. i remember hari saying "sorry la, don't cry" XD

oh okay, so. mssd.

as expected, ashman won every match. so 4/4 points :D I TOLD YOU SO ;D

buttttt, he got all the um. how should i put this? ah well. he got all the 'easy' people. who give away free rooks and etc. according to shman.

and AHHA i was about to betray shman if low jun jian was hot, but -.-' he isn't, so haha ;D i'm stuck with shman :P

okay. hari and hazwan also won all their games, and andrew won 3/4. our guys under 18 is HAVING THE TOP SPOT right now with 15/16 points! :D YESH! smk usj 12 is just 1 point behind us though, so the guys have gotta keep up their performance :)

ah well. my results:

1st round

ahha this was the funniest round. i was playing white. the both of us were first-timers so we were both nervous. i was thinking about hari and hazwan's face when shman and i pulled that prank on them, and they thought they'd lost to me. HAHA ;D and immediately, my nervousness kinda vanished. LOL. my opponent's hand was shaking. haha :P and I WON ;D yesh! :) i was estatic. my FIRST game, and i won :D

YAY!

2nd round

this round sucked. i made a horrible blunder. and she took my queen :( i was DEVASTATED :( she was in such a better position than me, and she could've checkmated me. haha but she didn't see. i managed to exchange all the pieces till there was only my king + her bishop and king. which basically means, draw. i offered draw to her TWICE, and both times, she declined. oh COME ON! you can't win with just bishop and king -.-' so, i tried to win on time XD haha! but the arbiter came, and he told us that it was a draw :/

so, a draw it is.

lunchtime!

we walked all the way to 7-eleven. turns out, hazwan's 'prediction' about kfc was right. there IS a kfc there. ahha unfortunately, i didn't really have the appetite, so i didn't eat. and now i'm hungry :(

after that, went back. checked the pairing. the arbiters made a mistake and listed it as ashman losing the 2nd round. thank god they changed it!

3rd round

this was honestly depressing, so i will only give main points. I HAD ONE MORE MOVE TO CHECKMATE. I WAS UP IN PIECES. and SHE CHECKMATED ME FIRST :( i was focusing on attacking her till i didn't see :(

after that round, i was horribly depressed. as usual, guys being guys, they did tried to pujuk me, going "jas it's alright la, it's just one round" etc etc. but ahha. it didn't work though -.- we were sitting on the road outside the hall. there were pebbles all around me, so i took them and threw them at the guys. i managed to get two into hari's shirt, and i put some in shman's shoe :D i was being so quiet, i think it was a bit creepy. ahha. 

4th round

this was nice :) seriously FUNNY. she actually tried to use 4-step on me. LOL I'M NOT THAT SUCKISH ALRIGHT? -.- siao. anyway, plainly said, i won :) ahha.

almost all of the last 3 rounds ended with all of us hanging outside, watching hazwan play -.-' haha. short people see better, hari. short people see better :)

i think ashman, hari, andrew and hazwan are sick of me. i've been hanging around them ALL DAY. actually, every day ever since this chess-craze started. ahha. i bet they're sick of me XD


shman's being creepy. he's been so quiet today, it's scaring me :/
what's more? he has no reason to be sad or anything, he won EVERYTHING. :/

final result: 

winnie: 4/4

shaza: 3/4

me: 2.5/4

amirah: 2/4

overall, i think we did quite well :)


i'm not exactly happy with my results. i'm just okay. leaning to unhappy though.
I KEEP THINKING "I COULD'VE DONE BETTER!"

ah well, there's still tmrw. if i wanna reach my goal of 6 points. i can't lose a single game tmrw. that'll be hard :/
my brain's killing me. i might JUST get a headache. PLEASE NO NO NO NO NO HEADACHES! not now!
plus, my legs are killing me. standing around and walking around took its toll on my legs :(
or most probably, i was so nervous, my legs were shaking. my mum said that THAT can cause extreme tiredness. yeah, i guess that's it. my legs are super tired, i can't even walk properly :( ask lynn. ask jannah.

anyway,

congrats, hari, shman, andrew, hazwan! :D

and you guys, NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS TMRW,

thanks for believing in me, even when i didn't believe in myself.

thanks for teaching me eventhough you were busy with your own trainings.

thanks for staying up SO LATE just to teman me late at night.

thanks for making me laugh whenever i'm disappointed in myself, and trying to pujuk me. although it fails XD

THANKS LOADS ;D


you guys are the best :)

♥

you were my first, and i thought you'd be my last
the memories we shared will always be the sweetest
but now i've got to let go of the past
and give the future its chance

i've been carrying regret for too long

i'm tired, and the time has come

to let go, to look back and smile

and eventually, to find the courage to move on

MSSD IS TMRW! GAH! :/

played against some guy on chess.com just now. made LOADS of blunders, and i LOST A BISHOP. he was up by a knight, but i had more pawns. heee :D in the end, i had about 7 minutes, and she only had a few seconds. HAHA XD andrew and ashman (who were at ashman's house) ( like i said earlier, andrew is sleeping over at ashman's house cause they need to go to sch early in the morning tmrw ) haha. they were busy laughing like freaks ( we were on msn call ) and they were saying stuff like "FAST JAS FAST! SHE HAS ONLY FEW SECONDS LEFT! SIMPLY MOVE!" "FAAAAAAAAST!" XD it was quite funny actually. the both of them were busy laughing, and that made me feel less tensed. ahha :D and so, i won. haha. i was actually counting down his time in my head, 10, 9, 8, and so on. and thennn, 1, 0! JESSAYE WON ON TIME, WOOT! ;D

if i'm this nervous now, i'm gonna be a wreck on monday :(