i'm sick. i'm tired of everything. i'm tired of pretending i'm happy when i'm not. i'm sick of faking smiles. i'm tired of saying 'i'm okay' when what i really want to do is yell and scream. i'm tired of trying to join in everything. i'm tired of laughing, tired of being who i'm not. i'm tired of holding back the tears, when i want to cry. i'm tired of doing the same dull thing every day, hoping for something new. i'm tired of hoping for miracles. i'm tired of listening to other people's problems when i can't even solve my own. i'm tired of caring about what other people think. i'm tired of trying. i'm just tired. you get what i mean.

i'm trying to hold on, to keep control. it's just. so. hard ):
maybe i should just go sit in a corner.
btw, this doesn't apply to everyone, kay?