i am so superly bloody pissed.
so many reasons.

1. I'M NOT SAYING
2. ALSO NOT SAYING
- i don't know why i even try. i've been hoping since last time, but it NEVER HAPPENS.
and then you expect me to be there for you?
I GIVE UP!

3. i studied so hard, actually no. I SLAVED.
and i wanted a camera so badly! so i asked my dad for it, since my results were good, and etc.
i didn't even ask for a NEW one, just his old one would do. AND WHAT DID HE SAY?
he frigging scolded me ):
sometimes i don't know why i even try.


i feel so un-appreciated.
i should just stop.
everything i do goes to waste anyway.
fullstop.