Some people come in our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while and leave footprints in our hearts; and we are never, ever the same. 

Lying down on my bed thinking of the conversation I just had with K Fung. And as usual, when thoughts of the gang come to mind, there'll just be this mix of emotions. And this time, I need to pen them down. (so much for 'pen', eh?)

Distance.

Not physical distance, but - distance. I think you'll get what I mean. It's been a year since high school ended for us, and so many things have changed since then. 

There's something really true about that quote up there. Truly, some leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. Some also leave something else; a hole only they can fill. For me at least. I've met so many new people this year, but truly there's always this loneliness that only they can cure. There's a room for Jannah's biting sarcasm, a room for KF's constant insults, a room for Sehran's annoyingness, even a room for Hari's constant stationery-stealing. Absence really does make the heart fonder. It's in this year that I've realised how much I really, really adore them (I can't make myself type the L word :P ). It's also this year that I've realised that the most annoying habits, the things I thought I'd never miss, would be the things that I'd miss the most - because they're the epitome of who each and everyone of them are; the memories of them that I hold dearest. 

Truth be told, there've been times when I wondered if our best-friendship was lopsided. Was it something that only I, or a few of us felt? They were my best friends, but was I that to them? Funnily enough, this year also helped me clear my doubts. Maybe it's because .. we may not spend time together anymore, heck, we don't even talk to each other that much anymore - compared to the past two years, when I think we spent most of our time in each other's company. It's the way we cling to each other, I guess. I don't know how else to describe it. It's the sincere 'I miss you-s' from people I thought I'd never hear that from. Perhaps it's the way we easily fall back into our habits whenever we're together. No one would ever have thought that we hadn't seen each other in ages, the way we go about it. Or maybe, it's the way I feel whenever I'm back with them - it's something that no other people can make me feel. Like I'm home. 

Someone (Pn Zamilah) once told me, 'you'll only know if a friendship is real if you go through the worst of times, and are still together'. We've had our ups, we've had our lows. But since we're still together, ;)

Another thing KF said really hit me. Being ready for the time that we'll grow apart. I don't think I'm ready, don't think I'll ever be. How can I ever be ready to move on from the people who've been the best parts of my life? 

We better make this work.

We better. 

Or some a-holes are going to get it from me >______> 

To think, the last time we were all together was the bbq last year. At least, that's what the pictures suggest. I can't seem to remember when it was last.