It Is Better to have Loved and Lost,

... than never to have loved at all.

- Alfred Lord Tennyson

Just went out with a bunch of my friends & I just felt compelled to pen this down for my sake, so that one day I can look back & remember this. 

Today, I am proud to say that I am filled with an all-consuming love. That I love someone so deeply with all my heart, with everything I have & everything I am. I am proud to say that I am giving this my all, that I am not putting in any less than 100%, out of fear. 

Because I am afraid. If this goes to hell, it would break my heart, maybe my spirit. It would tear me up inside, & it could ruin me. It will be the most difficult thing I'd ever have to bear, to date. It would be like free-falling without knowing if there's a safety net at the end.

I am afraid, but I have faith. I have faith in him, & I have faith in us. I will love with all I've got, because I know no other way. And because he deserves it.