i was happy. I WAS HAPPY.
one moment i was happy. the next i was just crushed.


well, i guess i should thank you for that. you made me realise.


i wish you knew what you've done.

i wish i could just tell you. 

i wish i didn't have to see you

i wish i could just stop. 

stop crying. stop caring.

god, can you please, for once, grant me my wishes? i'm hurt. i don't know what to do about it, cause there really isn't nothing i can do. these tears just keep coming, it seems like they just don't wanna stop. so, please?

better yet, please turn back time. 

jas, you stupid, naive little girl. you always make the same mistake. always. when are you ever gonna learn?!
i know, i know. why am i always the fool? 

i always say to myself, 'i won't be so stupid the next time'. yeah, right. time and time again, i let my stupidity take over me. i think with my heart, and i don't think with my mind. somehow, i just never learn. now, this is what i get, for not listening to advice.


i wish i could talk to someone about it. but i can't. and, i know what people will say. and i just don't wanna hear those words of advice. i just need time. i'm done with this. i'm done. i'm done.


the laptop screen is just a blur. i can't even see what i'm typing anymore. 
my eyes are swollen from crying.

i wish these tears would just stop falling. 
i've cried so much, there shouldn't be any tears anymore.

lynn says that crying makes her feel better. alas, i don't feel the same way.

lets just say that i cried myself to sleep last night 

and the tears are still falling, even now.