I Thought ...

                

I wouldn't miss school.

I was so wrong. When you're in high school, ex-students will tell you to appreciate the time you have there, cuz you'll miss it when you go to college. Well, at least that's what my seniors told me. Thing is, I never believed them. I used to shrug it off, cuz college will definitely be WAAAAAAAY better than high school right? Psh. 

I used to think that college life would be really really fun. I mean, we wouldn't have to wake up so early in the morning and be at school at 7.20 anymore. And we wouldn't have to wear uniforms. No more canteen food- we can go out for lunch! We wouldn't be stuck with school rules. Stuck with homework. We'd have cars and we'd be able to go anywhere we want after college. We won't have fixed classes anymore, and we won't have classes one after another for hoursssss. We'd have more freedom, more free time. I'd be able to go out with my friends more often, seeing as how we'd have more freedom and most importantly, transport!

Lies. In truth:
- Classes start at 8. To avoid jam and be there on time, we gotta leave BJ at 7. Which means we have to wake up at 6. 

- Deciding what to wear every morning is hell.

- Deciding what to eat is hard.

- More homework in college than in high school. And you can't even get away with not doing it. The lecturers really check, and punish.

- Have cars? Yes. Go around? No. No time.

- Classes start at 8 and go on all the way till 11. 12 on Thursdays, 1 on Fridays. 1 hour break, then back to college it is for classes till 3 or 4.

- Free time? What's that?

- Transport? Yes. Free time? No. Everyone's plans seem to clash and it's so hard to plan stuff. 

Conclusion:
I miss high school.

Sure, there's ups for college life too, but. Yeah, but. 

It just gets to me- The exhaustion. The endless work. The difficulty of meeting up with the gang. 

I'm just so tired. Day in, day out. I fall asleep every night while studying, exhausted. I wake up in the morning  feeling no better. Instead, I wake up feeling guilty that I'd fallen asleep again while studying. I try to do my homework, but doing homework takes up study time. And I need the time. 24 hours isn't enough anymore. I wish the days were longer. More time to catch up on everything.

I keep saying this, but I really really really really really miss the gang. Some of us aren't getting along anymore, and it's just really sad. Cuz I thought that we'd stay the same, you know? I guess K Fung was right. We grow up, things change, and we've to adapt. We're so far apart now, it sucks. Lynn, Shman, Leek and I are in Taylor's, K Fung and Sehran are in TAR, Evo's in MMU and Jannah'll be going off to KY soon. We don't share the same happenings anymore. Like in high school, if something happens, ALL of us would know about it. But now, I don't know what's happened in TAR, and Evo doesn't know what's happened in Taylor's, etc etc. And I barely get to see them anymore. Once in every few weeks, or maybe once a month. I used to see them every day.
It feels like we're drifting apart :(

Being at school brought up a lot of emotions, I guess. I walked around for a while and bits of memories just hit me. Places like the bench in front of the koperasi, for one. Our hangout spot after school. 

I hate this change.