Don't Fall In Love.

Don't fall in love. Don't fall in love with the way he smiles when he sees you, with the crinkles of his eyes. Don't fall in love with the shape his mouth makes when he whispers your name, or the sound that follows. Don't fall in love with the way he sleeps, or even the tousle of his hair in the mornings. Don't fall in love with his company, with the feeling of having him close to you. Don't fall in love with how he makes you feel- happiness mostly, but with a tinge of everything else. Just don't, don't - don't fall in love.

Don't fall in love at first sight.
Love at first sight, it's like buying a new blouse without trying it on. It may look good on the rack, but without trying it on, how would you know if it'd fit, if it suited you? In fact, I don't really believe in love at first sight- there are definitely some rare cases, but most of the time, it's mere infatuation. It's taking all your desires, your hopes and your idea of a dream guy, and placing them with the idea of him. All you know about him is the little that he's told you, and everything else is what you want him to be. Take a step back, re-evaluate. Infatuation, not love.

Don't fall in love with your best friend.
He's the person you're most comfortable with, and falling for him may seem like the perfect end to your friendship. No. You've the perfect relationship, why risk it for something that may not work out in the end? Remind yourself that if it all comes crumbling down, you'll not only lose a lover, you'll lose your best friend as well.

Don't fall in love with that bad boy.
There's something about bad boys which seems to attract us girls. Maybe it's the opposites-attract factor, where he's the bad to your good? Maybe it's because you think you can be the one that makes him change. It doesn't work that way. Your bad boy is likely to be stubborn, and changing him is out of your hands. He has to make that change himself. It will take time, and by the time that happens, he'll have hurt you. Hold back your feelings for him, only fall for him once he's changed.

Don't fall in love with someone who's already taken.
It's agonising, not knowing where you stand. You read into everything they say and do, and yet all you come up with is a sheet full of contradictory evidence. Here's a newsflash: He's not for you. Either a) he just wants you as a friend, or b) he's using you. Either way, keep your distance. There's a distinct possibility that c) he may feel a little something for you as well - but in that case, why would you want to be the third party who breaks up their relationship?

Don't fall in love with the boy who's too good for you.
His love for you is so .. up there that you can't ever reciprocate in the same way. You love him, but not as much. Give it up, for you'll only end up hurting him. An unbalanced relationship where one loves more than the other, it's not healthy. One of you will probably end up being hurt, and it's more likely to be the lover, not the loved.

Don't fall in love with someone far away.
LDRs are hard. They take up so much effort and they can drain you emotionally. They keep you up at night worrying, sometimes even wondering if all of it is worth it. Is it really?

But then again,
I am a paradox, and I contradict myself.

Fall in love.
Fall in love because it can be the most beautiful thing that's ever happened to you. Take the chance and let yourself fall, because he may be not just your 'happily ever after', but your 'to be continued'. Fall in love because he may be the exception to the rule.

Or even if it doesn't, fall in love because, well, apparently it is better to have love and lost than never to have loved at all.

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Hiiii guys! I'm at SiauChian's place now & am gonna be staying here for the next 5 weeks. Yesh it's Easter break yayyyyy! Finally omg. I need a break. The weird thing is, it seems as though this term has passed so fast & omg I'm so close to going back! Omg omg omg. Fifi is so cute. Yep I brought Fifi with me hehehe. Had a drinking sesh with the Malaysians last night for Shao Ji's birthday. We were damn onz to go Shabang but that didn't happen- most of us got too wasted to go to Shabang. Oh welllllll. Idk, I feel like I've learnt to deal with alcohol? I drink a little but I try not to overdo it or use it to make myself feel better or stuff like that, get what I mean? Things are getting a bit confusing in my life right now, quite a few things that I've to figure out. Taking advice from friends but eventually have to make the decision myself- that's part of growing up I guess. Just scared about where my decisions will lead me. Gonna read The Fault in Our Stars later & may also watch Ice Princess with Siau Chian! :)

100 Happy Days: Day 22 to 28 :)

Day 22: 17th Mar '14
Celebrated Sarah's birthday after group work! :) everyone really enjoyed the cake, which Lynn & I baked, so yeah #proudmoment :P Stayed back a little after that to just talk & hang. So thankful for Group 15 (yes I know I keep repeating this)

Day 23: 18th Mar '14
1. DR sesh today was craycray! We had to turn our cadavers around because the session today was for the gluteal region, & omg the amount of adipose tissue. We started dissecting & it just seemed to be a never ending layer of adipose tissue. Wish I could have taken a picture for y'all but it's not allowed & I'm pretty sure if I did post it here there'd be some 'JAAAAAAAAAAAAS WHYYYYYYY' responses hahah :P But omg after we cut through the whole layer of adipose tissue & flapped it over, it was as thick as my Anatomy book. Like this.

You see, the problem with cadavers with a lot of fatty tissue is that it's really difficult to see stuff cuz we've to clean off everything - trust me, it's difficult. One of our clinical demonstrators came up to us and said that 'In one session, you'll be doing more dissecting than Cambridge students do in a semester!', referring to all the work we had to do hahahah -____- Our group also had sort of an exhibition heh, so many people suddenly started pouring over to see the slab of adipose that we'd just dissected through. It was crazy, we kept having to show them omg hahah. But yeah we managed to get everything done & see all the structures, including the sciatic nerve, which was really really gorgeous! ;) After that, the same clinical demonsrtator came over & he spazzed over what we'd done! :) He said he'd lost hope for us at first & he was so surprised that we could see so much! He also told us that other clin dems told him we were good dissectors ;) we were all so proud omg hahahah :')

2. Study sesh with T! :) Was quite productive yayyy.
3. Donovan bought me nasi lemak omg omg omg omg yayyy :') saving it for tmrw's dinner! :) #deprivedwednesdays

Day 24: 19th Mar '14
1. Funfunfun group work sesh :)
2. Got Starbucks with Siau Chian & Jason, & we all ended up getting the exact same thing hahah. Hung out for a bit, then Siau Chian left. Helped Donovan buy Starbucks then went to watch him play badminton heheh. Jason & I zho deng at the side, having a little heart-to-heart :) Afterwards we left & went to MSB to study- sort of. Eventually we started playing puzzles hahaha so lazyyy.

3. I HAD NASI LEMAK FOR DINNER & IT WAS SO GOOD OMG :'D :'D

Day 25: 20th Mar '14
1. My baby brother did really well for his SPM! 6A+s and 3As, even better than me hahahah :'D He also passed his driving test yayyyyy. Proud of him :)
2. Donovan invited me to his friend's place for lunch! It was curry omg curry I tell you curry. It was so good I wanted to kiss his friend HAHAHAHA. But yeah you get my drift.

Day 26: 21st Mar '14
1. Had a cupcake!
2. Lunch with T, Jason & Vei Lynn. Spent quite a while looking for a place to sit in the SU, then decided to just sit outside. It was FREEZING. Then we explored the main campus a lil bit more, cuz us medic students are quite lost when it comes to the main campus hahahah. We only know our building psh. Went to see the dinosaur in the Geology building, then went up the paternoster in Attenborough. I've been here 6 months and I've never been up it hahah. Fail student weh. It was super cool, although a bit slow- going up 18 floors took a while heh. Coming down though, Vei  Lynn has a fear of heights and you know me, I've a fear of lifts falling and things like that so.. that was not fun -_____-
3. Extra lecture finished early yayyyy!
4. Watched Zohan with Lucy :)

Day 27: 22nd Mar '14
1. Went for afternoon tea with the girls! : Eugene, Julia, Lucy, Anlia & Vei Lynn ;) Food wasn't too good, but company was fantastic hee :D

2. Porridge & wings with  Lucy & Minhee! :) Also watched Mean Girls hahah.

Day 28: 23rd Mar '14
1. A 6am call, eeee.
2. Have I ever mentioned that I really like cuddling? :)
3. Spoke to Lynn & my parents!