change?

there was only ONE thing i wished for when we changed class , back upstairs - hopefully, no one would start to change .. when i went to school last morning, i had a really really bad feeling, ( maybe it was an omen? ) that things WOULD change. AND THINGS REALLY DID CHANGE .. i did try to talk to uhh, lets call him B . i tried talking to him, calling his name so many times. and still, no reply. it was as though i wasn't even there, as though i was invisible. he could at least have said SOMETHING, ANYTHING! to me, but he didn't. it was as though, since he had his best friends, why does he need us anymore?? he acted as though nothing was wrong, eventhough i was kinda giving him angry looks the whole day >.< style="font-style: italic;">OVERREACTING AGAIN ) but i'm not !!! he promised me he won't change.!! and he doesn't even care? he usually does, if i say those stuff. the worst thing was when i came home, i really wanted to tell someone that i got the AJK pengawas - AJK REKOD DAN DATA, so i actually typed out a msg, clicked send, and sent it to him. then, i remembered. HE'S NOT TALKING TO MEE ! so , i clicked CANCEL. omg that was SADDENING !! i needed to tell someone !! i wanted to tell someone about it, and the person who would actually say - congratulations, etc. was not talking to me! wth?!HEWASN'TTALKINGTOMEHEWASN'TTALKINGTOME!! *SOB* i was so distresseddddd :/ OMGOMG.

and last night, i had this freaky dream. evo and i were talking abt ' B ' and i think his friend ( anonymous :) ) heard and told him. then he came to us and said - YOU THINK YOU'RE SO IMPORTANT TO ME? NOLAAAH! U GUYS WERE JUST SUBSTITUTES FOR MY BESTFRIENDS ONLY. NOW THAT I HAVE THEM, WHAT FOR DO I NEED YOU?!

OMGOMG. GAHHHHH =.=

but i've learned something. never get ur hopes up TOO HIGH. because people can easily crush them ,and it'll only cause disappointment. so, THINK PASSIVE. at least, thats for mee :/ I HATE MYSELF. ( FULL STOP )