words unspoken in between

i miss you.
i miss everything about you.
i miss talking to you,
i miss sitting with you
while you help me out with all my problems.
i miss you giving me advice,
i miss you helping me out.
no one understood me like you did,
and i guess no one ever will.

there are just too many things,
too many secrets,
too many words left unsaid,
too many things kept in the dark,
too many things i hide.

because of you,
i don't dare to hope,
cause i'm afraid i'll be disappointed,
as i always have,
because of you,
i lost everything.
what more could i lose?
i'm drowning in my problems,
its just too hard to face them anymore,
everything that i do,
just seems to make it worse.

it just feels like,
everyone i meet will stab me in the back,
its just the matter of time.
i've lost trust,
lost hope,
maybe i've just lost everything.

-jas-