i realise i do this whenever i'm mad:

at first, i'll be thinking:
"please please please say sorry. i don't wanna not talk to you. please say sorry. please?" :(

thenn:
i just really miss talking to you. even if you don't say sorry, i'll talk to you, hoping that you'll realise your mistake.

but you never do. and i end up being hurt again. it's happened countless times.

i'm trying to change. really, i am. it just isn't working.
dear m, go away. i've lost all hope in you now.