1. mikhail came late today, and his reason? "hari yang indah" :O haha XD

2. ghost stories

3. lynn, hari and evo asking the EXACT same question [jaaaaaaaaaaaaaas, you don't like ...... do you?] wth -.-

4. prefects meeting. hazwan suggested me for ajk for games, for the sake of it. i suggested him for ajk persembahan, and hari for ajk sponsor. and all of us got it. evo's ajk hotel, with kamal.

5. hari and shman kept talking about me being obsessed with chess. totally lupa daratan (is that correct?) who's more obsessed huh? :P

6. letting out everything that i've bottled up for the past year.

as i'm writing this, i'm trying to remember those times that i was happy today. the times that i laughed, that i enjoyed myself. somehow those moments seem so far now. it's just been a short while, and my emotions just took a u-turn, and i'm stuck in this sadness again. i just wanna regain that feeling of being happy again. please? i don't wanna feel depressed again. this happens so often. it comes and then it goes, and it leaves me being confused in its midst. people don't realise it, cause i always cover it up. i'm thinking back of those happier moments today, and how am i reacting? a bitter laugh. i feel so bitter nowadays, it doesn't seem like me. i was happy. i was someone who laughed all the time, who could always see the better side of things. where did that part of me go? between now and then, i've changed. little by little. these emotions, i've hidden deep inside me, locked them away. the regret. the pain. the lost. mostly, the regret. the 'i shouldn't have, i shouldn't have' 'it was a mistake.' and now, they're resurfacing. i never should've brought it up, never should've mentioned it. it just brings back the memories. 

i think i'm gonna go give myself a good cry now.