First Goodbyes;

In life, there's a time and season for everything. As of today, it's the season of partings.

A few days ago, KFung wasn't even sure of whether he would be going to Singapore this year. On Monday evening, he received his offer letter. And today, Thursday morning, he left.

It all happened too fast. Waaaaay too fast. I didn't really register what was happening until I stood in his living room at 6.15 today morning watching him pack and load his bags into his car. And even then I didn't feel too bad. I was still thinking 'Just Singapore whuuuut. Got Skype and FB and Whatsapp and all'. Also partly because his dad gave us corn to munch on. It's hard to feel sad when you're eating kays. And also because Lynn Shman and Leek were being their usual silly selves. So yeah the feel wasn't there.

Not even when we hugged him goodbye, or watched his dad's car leave, or even after that when we went for breakfast and all together. Nope. It only hit me when I was in the car, alone, on the way to Sarah's house. I was speeding on the highway, when all those feelings just .. ATTACKED. I felt like I just got hit by a ton of bricks, and I was feeling so deflated the rest of the way. Because I just realized.

I have no idea when I'm going to see him again.

Really, no idea.

Before he left I told him, 'see you soon!' but really, what is 'soon'? Hopefully next month, if he comes back before I leave, but who really knows?

Okay. I need to get a grip. Honestly the main root of the issue now isn't that others are leaving. It's that I'm leaving. To somewhere really far away. If the issue really was about people leaving, I would have been this upset as well when Sehran went to Pekan and Hari went to Kedah.  But nope, I wasn't upset. Because we were still close. And they could come back almost anytime (sort of.) And when I really missed them I could just beg them to come back, and they would sometimes. But when I'm in UK, what do I do? Beg them to come over? Yeah right.

Dang weh.

I know there's still Skype and wtv else social network, but it's so .. impersonal. Shaun puts it best, so I'm just gonna quote Shaun heheh.

'Honestly, I hate Skyping with you. In terms of intimacy, it has less than zero quality. Talking to you on a computer screen will never ever surpass the act of ringing your doorbell and peeping through the slits of your wooden gate just to catch the first sight of you unlocking your door.'

Replace the last part of the last sentence with '... and seeing you. And being in your presence.' Yeah, that's it. What I'll miss is their presence.



Whether I like it or not, this has to happen. It IS happening, and I've got to learn to accept it, and enjoy the experience. Truth be told I'm excited as well. And worried. And nervous. Basically having loads of mixed feelings.

But well, as Leek said, 'That's life.'

Besides, it's not the end. :)

And with that, there's just one month to go.

Just a small update on some eventful happenings! :)

9th Aug
Raya open house at Jannah's! :)

Mr Vroege came :P 

You can read Jannah's experience here ;)

And so she had to leave us to fend for ourselvessss. Which led to the 'kuih lapis' incident. Lynn took a bite of her kuih lapis and started making a fuss in front of Jannah's mum. And Luqman. So to save her, I went 'let me tryyyyy!' and ended up suffering myself. (You're welcome, Lynn :P ) And then since there were leftovers, we played the finger game which daddy taught me. Ended up Evo and I got both the kuih lapis. FAIL -____- 

Do ignore the fact that Voe and I both look quite horrid here :(

10th Aug

PM13 gathering at Pammy's! :)

It was a steamboat dinner, so Pammy's mum actually expected the girls to prepare all the stuff. Instead us girls sat and talked, and in the end the guys settled everything :P Since they were our maids for the day, we gave them maids names! Shao Ji became 'Maria', and Larry became 'Yanti'. We couldn't come up with Keven's name, tho. Oh and Mr Leong joined us as well :)

What would PM13 be without pictures, right?

Kejia brought wine, and then we played this game. Each person would get a card, and you had to put it on your forehead so you wouldn't know what card you got.

Like this.

Basically, if you had the smallest card (based on choi dai di), you'd lose. We had to go in a circle, and each person had to choose whether they wanted to change their card, or add some wine into a glass. The loser would have to drink all the wine in one shot.

As you can see, Larry had the 3 of clubs. Getting a card lower than his was quite impossible lah, so all of us very confidently poured more and more wine into the glass. In the end,

Then it was the second round. I quit cuz I didn't want to drink heheh :S Went to talk to Mr Leong instead. The rest continued and this time, Hui Wen lost. Afterwards we went in for Dance Central! :) OH AND MR LEONG DANCED.

Thennnnn. We went to take pictures! :)

Then we celebrated Chia Xin's birthday! :)

And thennnn I had to leaveeee :( Hopefully this isn't the last time I'll see all of them!

13th Aug

Resultssss!

And then at night, Lynn and Shman dropped by! :)

I was quiiiite rich at first lah, but then idk what I was thinking- I kept putting out action cards without really reading what they would do -___- and then I started losing $$. And when I tried to get back cash and properties from them both, I got 'Just Say No'-ed. 3 times in a row. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

14th Aug

Kylie's farewell D: 

Because most of us hated it. And Dinah suggested to take pictures of all our reactions >_____>

KAAAAI - LEEEE - KU - AHHHHH

Yep. I very drama :P

15th Aug

TB test with Leek! Got stuck in the jam in the morn, yayerzzzz. When we reached,  Leek decided to ignore the 'staff only!' sign on the lift. Because of that, we had to be escorted out to the registration place -____- freak.

Bumped into Karti and Henry. Registration was a pain. Any mistake we made, we had to redo all over again on a new piece of paper. Which cost RM 1. 

Went upstairs where Leek took 2 extra tickets for Karti and Henry. Which he didn't pass to them so .. wasted. Sort of. Henry passed them to other peopleeee.

Completed TB test in an hour cuz we were early! Then went for breakfast at Old Town. Then went back home and sat outside Leek's house talking for an hour. Petrol free one mah.

Oh and also, offer turned unconditional! :)

16th Aug

Shopped with Shman at SCM! :) 

Got myself some stuff for UK, yayyy! :) All from H&M wootz :D

17th Aug

Sekolah High production! :)

I nearly got Best Dressed! :)

19th Aug

Dropped by Hao Yen's house to pick up Jayhan's phone which he left in Hao Yen's car, and ended up talking to him outside his house for an hour. We had so many things to catch up on, we kept going on and on and on. Couldn't stop :P And since he's never taken a photo in the rain beforeeeee,

We took one in the rain :D What a contrast to the picture Shman and I took heheheh.

And KF got accepted into NTU! :)

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With one more month left to go, I'm getting very sentimental about Malaysian things. I've been saying stuff like, 'this might be the last ... I'm ever going to have' etc etc. Which is honestly quite depressing la -___-

Anyways,

#preukmalaysianadventures

Roasted chicken rice! :)

DURIAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAN

Pan mee

Ba ku teh :'(

Pasar malammmm :D

Really really busy these few weeks to come. Many things to settle. Will update when I have the time :) Meanwhile, I needa make a list of all the Malaysian food I wanna eat before I leave. 

Till next time! :)

Results!

They were counting down the minutes. 10, 9, 8 .. and then, 1. The clock on my lappy turned '1.00 PM'. I held my breath, and clicked the refresh button.

It was so fast, I barely even had time to catch a breath, before it hit me.

2A*s, 1A

I burst into tears.

Which was waaaaay better than I had expected. Considering how hard the papers were, I wasn't even confident I would be getting straight As. I wasn't confident, and I was merely expecting to scrape through, barely. But this.

This exceeded all my expectations, and I couldn't be happier. And I know, I just know, that this was more His work than mine. I mean, look, two 90s and an 89. Which meant that  I maintained my Maths, and improved on Bio and Chem. Which I think, is virtually impossible. I had to get a 92 for A2 Bio, and a 91 for A2 Chem. There was no way on earth I could achieve that on my own, what more I was being quite lazy and my efforts were lacking for A2. 

And that 89, I believe God's trying to tell me something. There's a reason why it wasn't a 90. Something like that.

I'm rambling. Eheheh.

Just, too happy. Praise God, all glory to Him :) 

And now .. with this confirmation, it's full speed ahead! 

Jeng Jeng Jenggggggggg

My hope is built on nothing less

Than Jesus' blood and righteousness

I dare not trust the sweetest frame

But wholly trust in Jesus' name

Results out in less than 24 hours, and I'm getting really fidgety. Keep getting these knots in my tummy and nauseousness.

Listening to this song over and over again. Trusting Him with my future, and I know whatever happens tomorrow, His plans are always the best for me.  

Dream Yourself To Oblivion.

I can't get this off my mind, so here goes.

Before I begin, though, just a little background knowledge:
My uncle/ grandfather figure (it's a really long story) passed away back in 2010. Maybe it's because I've been reminiscing too much, looking through old photo albums. Or maybe it's because I had a conversation about 'Dreams' with Jacky on Thursday night. He asked about my nightmares. I told him I couldn't remember but that was clearly a lie. There's always that one dream I'll always remember. And that's probably what caused the similarities between that dream and this following dream. Whatever the reason, this was what I dreamt on Thursday night/  Friday morning.

He was alive. Turns out he wasn't gone after all, but he was just in hiding, from the authorities. For some weird reason they wanted him. It had been some time since he'd 'passed away', but suddenly the authorities suspected that he wasn't really dead. So they decided to do some kind of weird check. This was really weird, but apparently uncle died because of some sickness, I'm not sure what it was. But in order to clear their suspicions, the authorities had to make sure that every single person in our village (mmhmm, we lived in a village.) had that disease as well. Which would be fine because everyone in the village did have that sickness. Well, except for my grandma and I. The people closest to him. WHICH WOULD BE FRIGGING WEIRD LA. No one knew they were gonna do that check-up, but weirdly uncle knew. So he came back and warned us to fake being sick heh. And then he had to hide because the authorities reached our house. Narrow escapeeee. After checking everyone, the authorities were finally satisfied and I guess they were happy enough with their findings, their suspicions cleared. And then uncle had to go back into hiding. While he was leaving all I could do was stand there screaming for him to come back. I couldn't do anything. And just like I did when he left us the first time, and in my dreams the second time, I didn't get to tell him I love him. Nor did I get to say goodbye.

And then I woke up. With a heavy heart and that sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. It's horrible, that feeling.

Is it just me, that when I dream I always don't realize it's a dream, and I believe it completely? Or does that happen to everyone else? This sucks, seriously :(


Also, my mum woke up crying today morning because I'll be leaving soon. She doesn't want to talk about it, but I'm pretty sure she dreamt about it. Ah this is so sad.


Go ahead, dream yourself to oblivion.

'So rich ah!'

That, right up there, is one of the statements which annoy me the most. Usually this statement will be uttered when asking about my planned course and where I'm planning to pursue it. What course? Medicine. Where? UK. And then comes the infamous statement 'WAH SO RICH AH!' , along with the perception that I'm a spoilt brat. I hate to burst your bubble, but your perceptions are completely and utterly wrong. I'm not rich, at least, I never thought myself to be. I'd say my family is above average, and that's all thanks to my parents. They both came from families with low income, and they worked really hard (my dad especially) to make it this far. He's a really hard worker, and he's really determined to provide my family with a comfortable life. Also, my parents are really spendthrift. They don't spend unnecessarily, and the only thing they splurge on is family vacations. And they've always planned ahead for me and my brother's education. They've saved up so we sort of have an education fund. So no, we're not rich. We just save what we have. And another thing. I'm not spoilt. My parents never spoilt me with unnecessary things, and most of the time I get 'No's instead of 'Yes'-es. Plus I never demanded my parents send me to UK. I told them what I wanted (which was to go to UK), and then I let them decide. I never forced them or cajoled them to let me go. It was their decision alone, and I took mo part in making it. So strike 2 against the idea of me being a spoilt brat.

While I'm at it, there's something else that really annoys me- when someone puts themselves down. They make themselves look so unimportant and lowly, so how do they expect others to see them and treat them? All of you, everyone- have some self-pride, some self-worth, and love yourself. Never look down on yourself.

Dear readers, do take note.

Bloop Bloop.

Warning! : Slightly obscene picture of my brother ahead!

Sunday
Met up with Lynn, KF, Sehran and Evo at Secret Recipe. Had a short tea and chat session, then we parted ways. Sehran followed me back home to get changed for Taekwondo (YES HE CAME) and then we headed off to class. Class was interesting because of one thing - we (the seniors) had to jump across chairs, and side kick the kicking bag which sir was holding. It was scary at first, but once I got the hang of it, all was well :D Sehran selamba only, cuz he's tall whut. Voe was a completely different story. She did what I always did during lompat tinggi. Run towards the pole (in this case chair), then once reach the chair, come to a complete halt. Hahah Voe :') What's more, Sir started with one chair and then increased it to two, then three. Some kiddies like Kieran and Yong Tien were so excited they joined us as well. They only stopped because sir FORBADE them from jumping the 3-chair jump.
Ah, to be a kid again :')

Tuesday

Bought Tip Top ice cream from Jaya Grocer! :D It's really, REALLY good ♥

I've missed this, you see. Had it in NZ last 2 years, and I've been craving for Tip Top ever since. Will always remember how we melted it and re-froze it because we were moving around NZ :)

Puthea dropped by unexpectedly, right when I was settling down for lunch. She folded all these cranes for me! :') I love little handmade gifts like this ♥ She stayed for a while, told me she's getting married in 2015. To a guy she wasn't in love with. Which was really sad :( Feel really blessed that next time when I get married, it's not because I have to, it'll be because I want to, and it'll be to a person whom I'm in love with. 

Jason washed the pond :P I told him he reminds me of those poolboys in English movies, who clean pools in their underwear and then sleep with the house's mistress. HEHEHEH. Puthea came and she was like 'JASON NOW SO SEXYYYY.' HAHAHAHAHA

Wednesday

The gang (well, partly.) - Lynn, Jannah, Sehran, Leek and Hari came over last night for a small house-warming meet-up session. The meet-up was supposed to start at 9, but in typical Mafia Gang fashion, everyone was late. Except for maybe Sehran. Twas an interesting night :P It all started with Lynn's cockpit story. Which I can't reveal because of privacy issues. But that wasn't the gist of the conversation anyways. It was mainly about this: COCK.pit. Geddit? :P We're quite sick lah when we get together tbh.

After that, we played a round of Monopoly Deal. Lynn got mad with us halfway because Sehran and I (because I was desperate!) put properties as money. Eheheh. 

Afterwards, it was somehow decided that we would go on Omegle to well, for something interesting to do. So we did. We assigned the guys to sit in front of the lappy and filter the videos for us, because you know .. Omegle. After a few awkward videos, we came across one with these two guys - who didn't disconnect on us! :P So we said hi and chatted with them for a bit. Turns out, they were American soldiers in Germany! I was abit awestruck laa, like OMG SOLDIERS KAY. We tried talking to them, but we couldn't hear a word they say. We asked stuff like 'what do you always do?' to which they answered, 'sit around and do nothing'. It got a bit awks because we didn't know what else to ask .. and then they disconnected on us :( So we didn't get to screen capture the conversation D:

Next were:

Lynn told them that they looked like guys from 1D. She told the guy in grey, 'you look like Zayn Malik!' and he was like, 'I get that all the time'. Again, it got awks and then we disconnected on them -.-

Guy from Turkey who looked a lil creepy and asked us if we could speak English when we WERE speaking to him in English!

Next guy was also from Turkey. There were actually two of them, but the other guy was mainly in the background. I think he was abit drunk la, cuz he kept doing a few things repeatedly. Point at us. Wave. Heartshape. We actually got a screenshot but lost it because we didn't save it. Because Lynn accidentally screenshotted this :

Lynn wanted to get this guy yawning. 

There was also another guy. Some racist ass whom when he first saw us, he went 'where's my rice?' and then called us 'Chinese c****' -____-

The rest were all abit vulgar so we stopped. Although not before I saw something REALLY disgusting that the guys didn't warn me about D: D: EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

Picture before they left! :) Lynn's sitting cuz I accidentally stepped on her injured toe :( Sorry Lynn!

Everyone then went home. After cleaning up, I was going to head upstairs when I realized my phone was missing. I called it using my house phone, and Leek picked up -___- He already changed phone, and yet he can mistake my phone as his iPhone 5. GENIUS. So he had to turn back and pass it to me. Heheheh :P

Today

Went to Puan Zati's house for open house. I tell you, I LOVE Malaysia. I love how we have so many diff kinds of yummy food, and because we have so many races, we have so many holidays. YAY! :D 

Another update completed! :)

#simpleblessings